Honey (POV)
i sat at the edge of the bed staring at the wall. i was naked due to the fact me and leon had sex last night. i know i know...why did i go back to him? but really who else do i have? my friends are mad at me, my so called friend trell doesnt want anything to do with me, and i dont really have family.
"where you going?" leon questioned as he rolled over in the bed. i jumped a little not knowing he was up
"i- i was just about to go get in the shower"
"dont be to long. i need breakfast ready in 15 minutes" he demanded
"yeah..ok" i said getting up naked. he looked at me and licked his lips. i felt disgusted with him even looking at me. i went into the bathroom and turned the shower on. i got in and just cried. it was nothing left to do but cry. i wasnt happy with myself and my actions. but whats a girl suppose to do when she has no options? as much as i miss trell i wasnt gonna kiss his ass and ask for his forgiveness...
i let the steamy hot water hit me like bullets. i threw my head back in relieve. i felt relaxed for once until leon came barging in.
"aye i thought i said hurry up" he said. i could see his shadow through the shower curtain
"i'll be out in a few"
he huffed ans then wrapped his towel around him "ya know" he said as he began to talk "yo lil ass been really bugging me lately. im bringing 100k in every night and i ask you to hurry up and you cant do that? im doing so much for you!" he semi yelled.
i turned the shower off and got out. at this point i was so mad. i put my robe on and turned toward him
"you know what if you think money is gonna keep me with you it wont. i am worth more than any amount of money!"
he laughed "you really think your worth more than money? you aint nothing but gum at the bottom of my shoe" he retorted
"fuck you!" i yelled "what ya gone do? hit me? hit me leon hit me!" i yelled. i didnt even care if he hit me. i was so fed up with him. "you know while your at it shoot me! i'd love that cause i dont wanna live anymore. you'd be doing me a fucking favor leon!!!" i shouted
he starred back at me a little scared at how bold and demanding i was. he didnt say anything, he just walked passed me. i stood there for about 5 minutes as i soaked in everything that i just said. i couldnt even believe i said it, but i was mad and thats how i felt.
i walked into the room and put my clothes on. i didnt do much. just a pink shirt and pink sweat pants with some uggs. i put my hair up in a ponytail and applied some lip gloss to my lips. i went back into the bathroom and washed my face. as i looked into the mirror something happened. i felt something. looking at my reflection hit me like a ton of bricks. who was that girl starring back at me? i tear came down but i quickly wiped it away and went downstairs to see leon on the couch. i havent said anything to him since i got out the shower and he hasnt said anything to me either.
i grabbed a pot and pan to start cooking breakfast. i took outmy ipod 5 and played partynextdoor as i cooked.
"your right" he finally said "your worth more." he admitted as he sat on the couch not facing me. i looked up quickly shocked to hear him say that.
i swallowed hard before saying "thats the first time you've said anything nice to me"
"i dont know whats wrong with me" he said
i walked toward him on the couch "talk to me"
"ever since the last girl broke my heart, i been so cruel. she broke my heart like no other. she made me feel powerless and weak. i told myself i would never trust another woman again...than you came. and as much as wanted to love you i didnt know what love was anymore. i felt like i had to be the boss and make sure you wouldnt leave me. when you said you wanted me to shoot you it got to me...it wasnt the fact that you yelled at me, it was the fact that you said it as if you want to be dead. i cant lose you honey. im so sorry for everything." he said i hugged him tightly and cried for him. i dont know if this is real or if what hes saying is fake but i know one thing im here for him cause hes all i got
"i wont leave you leon" i kissed his forehead
"thank you"
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Ari (POV) 2 DAYS LATER----
today was my big day. today i would be making a big speech at an event for women in abusive relationships. after honey situation i felt like i should do something to help. anywho i invited her to come out but i doubt she show up.
"you look great!" Loren said to me. Loren was an activist and leader of the EWAA. it was a foundation for women with any issue. however today the discussion was abusive relationships.
my attire for today was a simple red dress with 4 inch heels. nothing to big, i wanted this to be more professional and not im going to the club outfit.
"thanks so much" i said to loren "how many people is it out there"
"over 490 guest from all over the world. i have celebrities, press, every news person you could think of, journalist, you name it out there sitting in those pink chairs. i need this event to go well. my name is written all over this and it has to be perfect."
"stop stressing before your curls mess up" i joked. she laughed "sees there a smile..you'll do good, i promise" i said to her. i dont know why i was giving her a pep talk, im the one who needed it
"thanks. your on first"
i took a deep breath and went out. i looked out into the crowd to see if honey was there but i didnt see her,
"hi my name is Arianna Nyguyen-Stevenson. i am a mother of two and i have a handsome husband also....Sorry im nervous" i said to them. they all gave me warm smiles to insure me everything was ok "i was surprised when loren told me she was putting me as the opening. ive never done something this major but im glad to be here with you. i've never been in an abusive relationship however i do know what pain feels like. wether its physical, mental, or even verbal. im sure we've all expreinced pain in some way and no matter how you put it no pain is worst than the next. im here today to tell you all that as women we have to be strong. not for ourselves, but for our children, our families, and most importantly for each other, no man is too fine or to rich to have the right to lay a finger on you in anyway you dont want him to. you have the right to say no. i know, easy for me to say ive never been in a situation like that...but really im not here to bore you or to just tell you what the next person can. i had a friend who was going through an abusive relationship and it made me hurt so bad. that night i cried for her, that morning i cried, and even the evening i cried. i guess you could say i cried all day. the point is, is when one hurts, we all hurt. be strong, be independent, and be a woman. just being a woman gives you all the power in the world. use it to your advantage. my name is Arianna, thank you all for you time & enjoy the rest of the evening"
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