broken maknae,, j.jk x bts

12

J.JK

It's almost time for me to leave this hell hole. I happy but also sad because I'll be leaving my best friends. 

The nurses have tried to get me to eat to help with my low body weight. I don't know why they lie to me. I know I'm fat. 

I'll be moving back into the dorm, but I don't have to practice for a month. I love the free time. I wonder if my Hyungs will like me again and that they won't hit me or ignore me again. I hope they changed in the six months. 

Yoongi was the only one who visited me, but it was only that once.  I wish he would have come more though. He would call every once and awhile. 

They're not picking me up from the hell hole I've been in for 6 months. Luke is. I'm going to his house for a week then my shared dorm with BTS. They have no idea though. A good after all the pain I've been through is that I made a few friends. Baekhyun and Donghyuk are getting out next month and the month after that. 

I'm ready to be picked up and I'm sitting by the front door. I was given my phone back. I don't even think I have a use for it anymore. 

I heard the door open and say the one and only Lukie."Lukie, "I squealed. 

"Kookie, I missed you, "He said hugging me. 

"Let's go, "I said and walked out with my bags. 

We got into his car and drove the hour-long drive to his apartment. I haven't been to his new apartment yet. I have been to the old one he had before he moved to the U.S. again. 

If you all know I 'can't' speak English. Well, that's wrong. When I was little Lukie would teach me English. I'm fluent like Namjoon I just never told any of them. 

I miss just being with Luke. He always has a way of making me smile. Something that my Hyung's used to do. 

While we were in the car we listened to American Music. Even though I can sing I still yell out the words to every song. I haven't had this much fun in a while. What I didn't realize was that my phone was ringing the whole car ride. 

Jimin

We all waited in the dorm for Jungkook to walk through the door. Yoongi Hyung told us that Jungkook said one of his friends was picking him up. He was picked up at 10:30. He should be home by now. 

Jin Hyung is frecking out. He's yelling at Namjoon Hyung asking why his Kookie isn't here yet. Joon Hyung couldn't answer Jin Hyung's question because he didn't know the answer. That just made Jin Hyung burst into tears. 

Yoongi Hyung kept calling Jungkook's phone but no answer. All of us are on edge. It's like losing everything you care for. Memories from what I had done to him flashed before my eyes. 

I didn't notice I was crying until Hobi Hyung wiped my tears away. Jungkook hates me, He hates Taehyung, He hates Jin Hyung. He probably hates the others but Yoongi Hyung apologized to him. Namjoon after a while hit him a few times and Hobi never did anything to him. Well, Hobi just ignored him and didn't speak to him. 

If someone had told me what I was thinking back when the plan to ignore Jungkook was made I would have slapped them. I'm thinking that I love Jungkook. I'm only realizing it now is because I have no Idea where he is. 

3rd

Well, Jimin wasn't the only one thinking he loved Jungkook after all. Everyone was thinking that. But what Jungkook had told Yoongi at the Hospital kept playing over and over in his head. 

"I loved you Yoongi you never knew and you made it disappear," then he pulled up his sleeve, "Look at my arms, this is because I felt unloved, unneeded, worthless, I let the voices take over because of you 6."

This is why he kept calling and texting Jungkook. 

He was calling the last time and when he heard the small voice of Jungkook on the other side of the phone he smiled with so much joy, happiness, and relief on his face. 

"Yoongi Hyung what do you want,"

Why aren't you at the dorm,"

"Oh about that,"

"Spit it out,"

"I'm like a half hour away from there at a friends house, and I'm staying here for a week,"

"Why didn't you just tell me that, I wouldn't have been as worried as I was,"

"I'm sorry Yoongi Hyung,"

"I forgive you, see you in a week,"

"See you next week Hyung," and with a giggle, Jungkook hung up.

I looked up from my phone and saw everyone looking at me."That was Kookie," Before Yonngi could finish Jin yelled in happiness. "YES MY BABY KOOKIE IS OK,"

"That was Kookie and he won't be back for a week, he's visiting a friend for a week,"I said and everyone looked sad. They all missed Kookie, although Jin and Yoongi were the only ones to show it. 

Early yet late update.