i just had an anxiety attack.
i partially know why i had one.
i tried to go on a walk to calm down but i wasnt able to leave the house so i locked myself in my room and just paced until i calmed down a bit. im still a bit shakey but im slowly getting better. all i wanted to do was have someone hold me until it stopped but i didnt want my family to hold me. all they would make me do was take melatonin and say go to sleep. i wanted someone far away from my house to hold me. they wouldve made it better. the long walk to their house wouldve made it better. but i couldnt leave. i just wanted someone to hold me and tell me everything would be okay. that nothing would hurt me again. that something good will happen soon. i just need that right now.
i was fine earlier but now im just not fine.
