Y/n Y/l/n, a doctor by profession, loner by destiny is a big fan of the British actor Tom Holland. Her whole life changes when she accidentally bumped into a blue-eyed man on a rainy dark night, who was supposed to be Tom's best friend Harrison Oste...
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It's been a month since you left Harrison.
It's been a month since you moved out of the Osterfield family home.
It's been a month since you're completely ignoring him.
It's been a month, since that blonde regrets that he's alive.
After your broke-up with Harrison, the last 10 days of his shoot were extra tough for him. All the time he cursed himself for cheating on you, for hurting you.
He remembers the new stress of longer working schedule was tough for him to handle, also being away from you was affecting him. That day he was drunk to his high. Agnes, his ex-girlfriend found him in the bar. She thought it to be an opportunity to get him back. Harrison wasn't in his senses when he slept with her, he thought it was you. Next morning when he woke up, he realized his mistake. He was too afraid to call you, to hear your voice, making him ignore you. Agnes came back to him again, she almost threatened him to inform you about that night. He was afraid to lose you, so he played along. And that was where he fucked up everything, he actually lost you.
He promised you that he won't ever hurt you, but he broke the promise. He regrets every word he said to you that day.
He had already seen his future with you. And now you're far from him. You hate him.
••• On a regular day, he was taking out a razor for a shave. But he didn't end up shaving. He decided to punish himself for hurting you.
How much blood is required to forget you?
He started off slow. Just some minor cuts along the inside of his sleeves. But they weren't enough to suppress the pain he thought he gave you. They quickly evolved to be deeper. With each passing day, he would see how his blood mixed so well with the running water, swirling perfectly into the sink. He started hurting his other body parts too. He even started writing random words or drawing random patterns over his hands and chests using a blade. His shirts became darker, his sleeves longer with each passing day.
More than once he had considered ending his life, just giving up on everything. Just closing his eyes and allowing the demons of his minds to take control. But he failed. He had a family, he can't hurt his parents and sister too. He gave up the idea of dying. But he developed the idea of suffering more. He significantly started eating less, so less that he could feel starving.
Not eating accompanied by the loss of blood he suffered every day worsened his health dangerously. He won't even able to walk properly. He was always dizzy, his vision blurry. He tripped over things too often. His blood sugar level was going significantly low, rising anaemia making his condition adverse. His family and friends especially Tom was so worried for him, but he didn't allow anyone to help him.
He only wanted you. He wanted you back so badly.
••• He decided to visit his best mate Tom's house, in a hope that maybe that could divert his mind, but the result was totally opposite.
The front door was already open. He saw you and Tom sitting together on the couch watching a movie. Your head was resting on Tom's shoulder, making Harrison's condition worse.
He burst out inside the house, yelling in his dry voice "Congratulations! You and Tom are finally together."
He was mad and out of his mind. Every little thing was a big deal to him.
You and Tom stood up seeing him. "I'm not like you!" you shouted, running upstairs, lacking any mood to face Harrison.
Tom came walking towards his best mate, he was too a little mad of Harrison's words. "What the hell Harrison, I and y/n are just friends and nothing more, we were just watching a movie. She was feeling low and that too because of you, so I was trying to comfort her! That's it! There is nothing in between us and in the hell, you don't analyse things before opening your mouth!" he explained.
He felt even more weak hearing Tom's words. He realized you didn't move on, making him feel even more evil of accusing you of being with his best friend.
Tears were choking his throat, he somehow managed to speak in between sobs. "I'm... sorry. I saw Y/n and... I can't help... I...," he couldn't complete his words as the whole room began spinning in his head, making him lose his balance. Everything went black for him a moment later, making him fall roughly on the floor, hitting his head on the sharp door edge.
PS: The song 'Bad Liar' by Imagine Dragons suits this chapter a lot.
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