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Forgive me? - 2

Shawn walked around the cloudy city of Toronto as he had just walked out on his ex. He needed to think about what had just happened.

She came back after two years, after two years she finally figured to let him know that she was alive. Shawn didn't know what happened to her, didn't know if she was okay. The only messages that she got was from her mom after she left saying she was okay.

She had no idea how much he was hurting. He thought everything was perfect, they were happy, in love but one day she disappeared.

He missed her every single day since then. He wished he could've helped her. But he never did. He didn't how to feel about her.

He left the Latina in his apartment, not knowing if she'd wait for him to come back or she left. He hope she waited for him. He still wanted to talk to her.

Being alone and being able to calm down, Shawn saw her side of things, realizing that he does deserve to hear why she did what she did and he shouldn't just push her away. She deserves to explain herself, she is trying to do better by her wrongs, and Shawn knew he couldn't be angry at her for that.

After walking for about 20 minutes Shawn had calmed down a significantly. Seeing her just brought so much hurt back but he had decided that he didn't want to fight. He just wanted and explanation.

He rushed back to his apartment, he didn't know if Camila was still there. He hoped she was. He was ready to hear what she had to say.

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Camila waited for Shawn for around 2o minutes. She really wanted to talk to him. She couldn't leave this place without him knowing. She didn't want to leave knowing that he still didn't know how sorry she truly was.

She didn't plan on leaving. She knew he would come back, she knew that Shawn would want to hear what she wanted to say. At least she hoped.

She sat on his couch scrolling through her her phone as she heard the doorknob open. She took a deep breath in and looked up to see Shawn. He looked at her and smiled ever so slightly.

"Hey." He said as it echoed through her head

"Hi.." she said back. She watch the boy remove his shoes and walk over to the couch and sit down. He fiddled with hands as she could see how nervous she was

"You stayed." He let out.

"I couldn't leave." She said

"Oh really?" Shawn said sarcastically letting out a smile. She always knew Shawn would always make jokes out of horrible situations

"Shut up" She said rolling her eyes back while smiling.

"Hey. I kid, I kid." He told her Camila chuckled

"I know you do." She smiles softly at him. He smiled back.

"So..." Shawn breathed out "let's talk?" Shawn asked

"Let's talk." Camila said confidently

"How long did you think about leaving before you actually did it?" Shawn asked

"2 and a half weeks." Camila said

"Why did you leave?" Shawn asked her

"I did because I was trapped, trapped In my own head. I didn't feel free, or like myself. I wasn't ready for commitment, I was scared of it. I was insecure about you finding someone better or leaving me that I did it before you could..." Camila let out nervously

Shawn bit his lips as he looked down at his hands.

"You could've told me all of this. I could've helped you." Shawn told her

"I know now that you could've, i was different two years ago, I was a girl who was insecure and would over think the littlest things. I wasn't ready for a relationship, I wasn't even ready for myself"  Camila admitted to him

"Who are you now?" Shawn asked

"I'm me, I feel like who I'm meant to be, I've figured out who I am. It took a lot of therapy and a lot of self management and motivation, but I feel like I'm ready to face my past." She told him Shawn smiled at her

"I came here because I need to make rights with my wrongs. To not be forgiven but for people to know that I am sorry, to let people know I am trying to change"  she told him

"It really hurt when you left, no warning, no note, no phone call or text. I was so scared. I thought I lost you until you're mom texted me you were fine and told me you didn't want to hear from me." Shawn admitted

"I know you're mad and heart broken. I expected that, you have every right to feel how you feel. I would too" Camila reassures him

"I don't know why, but I thought I would've got over you, I never did. And that's what fucking sucked. I never got you off my mind..." Shawn said. Camila smiled sadly

"I really wanted the best for you. And I thought I wasn't good for you.  I left thinking it would've been good for you." Camila told the boy.

"Well, it clearly wasn't!" Shawn smirked Camila shook her heard in laughter

"I just came here to tell you, that I'm sorry. That I'm truly fucking sorry. From the bottom of my heart I knew I fucked up the minute I decided to walk out that door. I knew this was going to be something I regret. And I really do regret it, if I could go back I would tell myself to talk about it with you. I don't expect you to forgive me now, or ever. I just want you to know I'm sorry, if you know that I think I could live with myself" Camila told the boy sitting across from her. His eyes gleamed a little bit more happiness as she could she his eyes have a glossy finish to them

"I know.." Shawn told the girl. " I know you are." Shawn smiled, they girl smiled back.

Shawn still didn't know if he could forgive the girl, but he felt a weight that had been lifted of his chest. He finally knew why.

"Thank you." The girl smiled "thank you for understanding." Camila told him

"Thank you for having enough courage to clear things up between us." Shawn told her.

"Pleasure" Camila said getting up from the couch and walking herself from the door. Shawn followed.

The girl slipped her sneakers back on and Shawn handed her the leather jacket she brought With her. She put it in and smiled

She stared into the brown haired boys eyes and wrapped her hands around his neck pulling his body close to hers. Taken back at first Shawn wrapped his arms around the smaller girls torso and hugged back. They stayed like that for a couple of minutes, just enjoying each others embrace

She pulled away as he opened the door for her.

"You still have my number right?" Shawn asked the girl nodded

"Never got rid of it" she smiled

"Would you want to go out for coffee or something, as friends. We could catch up." Shawn asked

"Yeah.. I would love that" Camila smiled at him widely

"Okay. Cool. I'll call you?" He asked. She nodded

"I'll be waiting" she looked up at the taller man

"Bye Shawn..." she said walking away

"Bye Camila" He said softly closing the door behind her

A/N: y'all wanted this 🤷🏻‍♀️

If y'all ask for a pt 3 imma give it to you, cuz I might write one if people want it

Also I might delete 'sober' I lowkey hate how it's turning out