EatJin (JinxBTS+ARMY)

Chapter One: Sincerely Ugly Jin

Jin's P.O.V.

I keep a smile plastered on my lips as I answer questions from this excruciatingly painful interview.

"So everyone what is your favorite food to eat in America?" I hear Namjoon translate. My stomach churns just thinking about eating right now.

"pANDA EXPRESS!" Taehyung and Yoongi said in unison.

"In and Out!" Say's Hoseok and Jimin agrees with a happy "yes". And Jungkook nods.

They all turn to look at me. "yEAH In and Out!" I say in my stupid accent smiling and winking, though wanting to throw up at the amount of calories that are probably in one bite of that shit.

"Ok everyone that was a wrap!" Says a staff member. Relief takes over me and I let out a small smile.

That smile quickly fades as I hear the words of the devil, "Lets go eat!"

"A-actually, guys, I'm not feeling so good and you don't want me want to throw up at our next interview do you?" They giggled and excused me from the lunch they were about to have.

Funny isn't it? How easily everyone can go with out me, how replaceable I am.

I let out a small, sad laugh of defeat as I made my way back to my hotel room.' What defeated me?' you may ask. Well, that would be my demons named Self Harm and Anorexia.

I stepped into the bathroom. It was full of light and a would-be pleasant blue color. But now was not the time to enjoy things as insignificant as that. No, now was a time of sorrow and grey.

I looked in the mirror.

My cheek bones were barely visible, fat.

I took of my shirt.

My collar bone and ribcage were visible.

My hip bones were just about visible, fat.

I took off my pants.

Fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat. All I saw was fat. My thighs, that were covered in cuts and scars, just barely didn't touch.

I sat my self down on the toilet seat, the world was a hazy grey around me. It's like my mind couldn't bother with putting color in the world.

I got out a razor blade. Dragging it across my skin with out even batting an eye at the sting.

Then appeared the only color my mind bothered to focus on, red... blood red.

I did this again, and again, and again. I did until I had nowhere left to cut on my fat thighs.

Blood streamed from the cuts in little trails. They ran down my legs causing me to shudder at the cold sensation.

A smile found it's way on my lips as they started to sting and throb.

After most of the cuts had stopped bleeding, I had washed the blood that dripped onto the floor, and I had put my cloths on, I hid my razor in my book that I was reading and decided to go see what the guys were doing.

I gave Namjoon a call.

"Hey Namjoon! What are you all doing?"

"We just finished eating and are driving to the hotel right now." He said.

"Cool! Welp, see you when you get here."

"Ok, bye Hyung!"

The call ended and my fake atmosphere faded.

Soon after the door came open and six (6) happy boys came rushing in to greet me.

"Are you feeling better hyung?" Jiminie asked.

"I'm feeling better, I just needed to rest and get a break from you lunatics." He giggled.

"You ate while we were gone?" He asked.

"Yep!" No.

He smiled and went to go talk with his other brothers.

"Everyone!! We have an interview in about 20 minutes! Get to the car!" Namjoon yelled over the loud chatter of the other five (5) . Why only five (5)? Well that's because none wants to converse with poor Jin-Hyung.

I sighed and walked out the door and made my way to the car.

Suddenly a hand grabbed my shoulder and pulled me back.

"You didn't eat when we were gone did you?" Yoongi narrowed his eyes. "You lied right to Jimin's face."

"I-I don't know what you're talking about." I answered in a cheerful calm tone.

He 'tsked' and sighed. "When are you going to stop lying, Hyung?" His gaze softened.

"I-I really d-don't know what you're talking about." I said sternly before I shook his hand off my shoulder and walked back to the car.

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A/N: Hi! I hope you enjoyed that chapter! If you see any mistakes please point them out and I will fix them. I'm very sorry if this triggered you in anyway. See you next chapter! (Sorry it's so short....... ;-;)