EatJin (JinxBTS+ARMY)

Chapter six: An explanation please

Third person P.O.V.

   That morning at 7:00 (am) the same doctor from last night entered Seokjin's room.

He wasn't surprised to see six boy's instantly jolt awake.

All of their eyes shone with worry and exhaustion.

"Good morning." He said.

They all looked at him like he was the most stupid person alive.

He coughed, "Anyway, I just wanted to say that Mr.Kim is going to be fine; We patched up the twelve cuts-six on each wrist- and patched up some of the cuts on his thighs." He paused, "I unsure if you were aware that any of this was happening but it seems that you're friend was dangerously thin, and based off all the information we've gathered it seems as though Kim Seokjin has suffered with bulimia and anorexia for some time now." 

The air grew thick for all the boys again,

"Once Mr.Kim wakes we will talk about health, recovery, and things that you guys need to do to make sure he doesn't end up like this-" he gestured toward the uncurious man, "again."

They all nodded. 

Then a small sobbed was heard from the bed behind them.

Jin's P.O.V.

   The darkness was wonderful.

Peaceful

Calming

Quite.

There were no voices telling me to die

there were no "army" telling me to lose weight

there were no dance teachers saying I sucked.

I just existed in this abyss and I couldn't ask for anything more.

'no no no no'

I was getting awoken.

'I don't want to leave'.

I saw light.

Then I opened my eyes.

My head throbbed

my wrists throbbed

and more importantly my heart throbbed and that was the worst part.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I saw six seven blurry figures. 

I let out a sob that made my dry throat burn.

My vision cleared up and I could see all eyes staring at me.

"J-Jin?" A small voice- Jungkook's voice- called out.

One moment I was all by myself and then suddenly I had six boys sitting on my bed crying their eyes out. (including me)

"I'm sorry." I managed to croak out. "I'm so so sorry." 

"WHAT THE FUCK SEOKJIN!" I was surprised to see Min Yoongi shouting at me with tears running down his face.

I flinched.

"HOW COULD YOU, HOW- How- why?" His voice cracked. 

The look in his eyes, in everyone's eyes, was pure hurt.

"I-I.... I.." I didn't know what to say. 

Out of the corner of my eye I saw the doctor slowly exit, probably just waiting outside the room.

"Yoongi, calm down." Namjoon's voice wavered as he tried to stay strong. "Jin-Hyung let me start with an easy question: What have you been suffering with, depression? Eating disorders? Etc?" 

I hesitated and I swear my life flashed before my eyes. "Depression.. anorexia, bulimia... and self harm..." Guilt filled up every part of my broken soul.

"Why didn't you tell us Hyung?" This time it was Jimin.

"I-I.. I was afraid.. god this sounds so stupid." 

"You don't sound stupid Hyung, we just want to understand." 

"How long has this been going on, Jin?" Jungkook asked, the hurt in his voice alone brought me to tears.

"Three years." I whispered, but I knew they heard me.

It was silent.

Finally after what seemed to be a million years the doctor came back in.

He coughed and gained seven pairs of bloodshot eyes.

"Hello, Mr.Kim, I'm you're doctor and we need to talk about some important things..."

We talked for at least two (2) hours about many things: Recovery, coping mechanisms, medication (If needed), taking care of me, and many, many, many other things.

To be honest it was tiring, but we did come up with a plan.

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A/N: I didn't expect this book to get so much love, thank you! I'm pretty sure this book is only going to have about 3 more chapters (Including the epilogue) but I don't know lol. This is also unedited so if you see any mistakes please point them out so I can fix them. Anyways thanks for reading and see you next chapter!