Tell me you love me (Sekai ichi hatsukoi onodera ritsu x takano masamune )

Chapther 6 : certain glances aren't forgetten so easily

P.o.v.

Onodera Ritsu

I knock on the door over and over and finally I hear his voice.

" Who's there? "

" Onodera "

" What's the matter? "

Says he

" Could you let me in? I think we need to talk. "

" What about going out for a walk instead? "

He still looks depressed.

I nod.

We walk togheter until we reach a very familiar place.  And suddenly I notice it was the place where we went on the Takano's birthday.  I blush as those memories catch up with me.  I remember it was snowing and I was enchanted to see that white skyline. But know I realize what stunning red sunset was hidden in the show. I am buried in the memory of that night.

I need to cacth my breath.

" Do you remember? "

" I do"

  He pauses.

" You're dismissed. Now you're free to work with your father's company. "

I start laughing.

" It's a joke, isn't it?  Very very funny "

But then I look into his eyes and I realise how serious he is

" This is not a joke at all "

" Takano what is this about?  What's going on so suddenly? "

"You're a literature editor. You know it? Then... "

" Is that so? B- but I thought"

Oh no I'm starting to stutter.

" You thought wrong!  And you deserve to do what you want to. You don't belong here "

" I do belong here "

" Sure? Think about it! What there is here for you?"

" What the hell are you. ..?"

But before I can finish the phrase I see him walking away.

Why?  Why?

I can't let him go. 

" Hey hey "

He doesn't stop.

I can't let him go .

"MASAMUNE! !!!!!" I scream .

This is the first time I call his name. 

He turns around.

Certain glances aren't forgetten so easily. And this was one of them.

"you said you loved me " I tell him trying not to cry.

" I do. I love you enough to let you go " he answers.

I can't say anything.  I'm just wordless. 

I let him go.

I let him walk away and disappear again.

p.o.v

Takano Masamune

I've done it.  I lost him definitely. 

Pain and regret devour me.

Emptiness. I feel so emty without him.

"There's no coming back"

I think

" Takano open the door NOW! !"

I hear his voice.  Ritsu?  Why are you here?

I could always pretend I am not here.

But sooner or later we'll end up to meet. We are neighbours after all.  And he knows where I work.  There is no other way.  I have to move on and leave the country.

I must start a new life without him.  A life without him.

This though makes me so scared. But I have to do it for him.  He deserves it.  A better work, a better lover and a better life.

I pause.

I wonder if he will suffer.

But how? He doesn't even love me. He never told me he loved me. 

" Takano I know you're here! !"

Since he doesn't give up I'm staying with him tonight and tomorrow I'm leaving the country.

But I need to tell him goodbye first.

"Come in " I say opening the door.