Tell me you love me (Sekai ichi hatsukoi onodera ritsu x takano masamune )

Chapter 9 : Sinking

Takano p.o.v.

Loneliness, emptiness and this terrible feeling of nothing are devouring me slowly.

I came to London and stayed with some realatives of mine about six weeks ago. I should just forget about him but no matter what I say or what I do, I'm trapped in this love.

I just can't let him go. And the worse is this feeling of sinking in this darkness 'cause he's my only light.

But I can't afford to be so selfish. I have to think about what's best for him. And it's not me.

But I still wonder if he find that happiness he couldn't have with me. Is he alright?  Is he working in his company? Does he really love An-chan?

"Another one" I say staring at the empty bottom of my glass.

"Isn't it a little bit too early to get drunk?" The barman wants to be funny.

"Shut up and take me that wiskey!"

It's just like 10 years ago.

I thought I was stronger.

But I was wrong. Again.

"Ritsu" I whisper slowly.

"Come back to me"

I still want him by my side.

So badly. 

"Is he wondering where am I just right now?- I think - Does he miss me? "

I can't live in the past.

I have to move on. Give up on him.

I just need to know if he's alright. And then I'll definitely let him go.

I take my phone and I dial that number.

"Hi"

"Yokozawa... I have a favour to ask you! "