Forever Gone

chapter- 6

I drove to my home n landed on my bed . I'm forcing myself to move on with my life , have a boy friend , finding my love of my life . I just wanna be like others n lead a normal life . I'm really tired of myself .

The history repeats again . I'm happy with Alexandro , till he touches me . If I'm being like this , it will surly end up like Oliver . I'm being a bitch . Playing with emotions n breaking hearts .

I just feel betraying when I'm in others touch . I'm missing something . Its like I'm incomplete . I'm not sure about my feelings . It's too clumsy to share with someone . But I need someone to advice .

I'm recently having secondary thoughts which are stressing me a lot . Maybe I need to have a medical consultation . Am I having aphephobia??? FUCK NO ... I hope I'm well .

I'm messed up with my thoughts . All I wanna do is to go out to the bar n get drunk , make out with a handsome man n get slept n lose my virginity . And prove myself my not sick .

But for god's sake I can't do that , I promised myself to give my precious gift to my husband , love of my life . Not that I'm completely into holy . I just wanna be pure to my wedding n faith full vows . I always dream for my Prince charming , love life , happy wedding , many children probably a soccer team at my home ...😉😉

I'm mentally stressed a lot now a days losing my friend Oliver . It really hurting me seeing him broken .

I'm messed up n wasting my vacation . I don't want my holidays to be dumb . I want to get free from this shit and enjoy .

Eating ,sleeping ,shopping ,exploring.. along with a vacation . It sounds really good . Kate also suggested today . All I need to do is gathering my buddies ......

With my thoughts I fell asleep .
I wake up with the call from Sia ....

She was silent for a while n started crying . God what the hell happened to her .
" Sia cool down baby , where r u ? " I asked .
" I'm at our cafe " she said while crying historically .

I sucks at consoling people .
God why did u give me much defects n very few good qualities which even I too don't know .

I drove to the cafe . Sia was at the corner seat with tomato face , buldged eyes , joker nose and started hiccuping .

" Sia what's wrong ? Have water . " I handed her a glass of water . Soon after drinking hiccups ceased .

As I asked the reason again she started crying .

She sobbed , all her heart out . As she was heart broken seeing her boss ,( crush as she thought but love in my opinion ) having private time ( in her words sex , in our language ) with a VS model in his office .

Sia was a very polite n self restricted person . Not like me . How that idiot not see a precious gem .

" Plz Sia , he doesn't worth ur tears baby . U deserve someone better . I'm sure he wasn't ur type . He is a playboy how can u expect him to be . " I said .

" Its difficult to see him with other girls , even we aren't compromised it really hurts me ." She stated sadly .

" Sia don't be foolish , there is no we for u guys .He doesn't settle to one . If u can't feel like working with him then why don't u quit ? " I suggested .

She looked silently for a while then decided to resign or get posted to another branch away from him .

I'm satisfied with her decision . Within 2 day her project of wedding dress designing ends . Then she is going to take a week off , if not resign .

After Sia decided to stay strong and move on . We had chocolate drink n headed home .

Reaching home , peeling my clothes jumped into my comfortable pyjamas . My house was noisy probably Nimmy n Jack must be back . I decided to call Rose n ask her to join us on vacation .

Rose was interested to take a vacation . Her duty will be managed by her colleague in her absence . As she was posted to South a Africa it would be our last tour together .

All we need to do is planning . So we decided to gather at Kate's house .

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Hey guys ,

I'm back soon with an update even though it is a small one with only 757 words .I'm looking forward to complete this story soon ...

Today is a spl day for me ...
My bestie's bday ....so this chapter is dedicated to her ..once again happy birthday pretty 🎂🎂🎂🍫🍬🍭🍻🍻🥂

Happy readings ...