Alone

Mixed up

-Ivey's POV-
I need help.
I mean, after everything he did to me I'm scared to love again

Even tho Marcus is sweet, caring, lovely, nice, and damn hot, I still feel something for Jack. That eyes, I've seen them in every situation. Happiness, sadness...That blue, ocean eyes, and that black hair gave me chills everyday. I was literally obsessed with him. And I though he felt the same.

My sister died, and he was the only good thing in my life.

I loved him so much, but he didn't love me.

Everything he wanted was my sister.

Soon after she died, he left me too. He probably realized that he has no use since she passed away.

I don't know how can someone be so heartless?

Little does he know what he did to my life?

I'm depressed.

I'm always sad.

I'm bullied

I'm abused.

I'm alone.

And he is the first person who is doing this to me.

To my life.

To my weak, useless life.

Sometimes I don't understand why didn't I just kill myself before.

Well, that's definitely on my wishlist.

I mean, I'm no one and nothing, I have no one who would care if I do something to myself, do I?

No. Of course not.

My mom is literally wanting me to kill myself since I was born probably.

In school isn't much better either.

I doubt if my parents ever loved me

People change way too fast.

-Marcus' POV-
I was laying on my bed, thinking about Ivey.

Suddenly Martinus entered into room:

-Hey bro whatcha doin'?-He said.

Oh, well, someone's in a good mood today.

-Nothin' much-I said not intrested.

I wasn't

I was a bit hurt.

I feel like I bothered Ivey.

I feel like she hangs out with me just because I'm new.

I feel like she doesn't trust me.

Doesn't feel anything towards me.

Doesn't feel the way I do.

I want to make her feel safe, to feel loved, I want to be friendy

I'd be there everytime.

Protect her from anything and anyone.

Love her the way no one else can.

Give her real love.

My love.

I'd give her my heart.

My soul.

I'd give her my everything.

I was so into my thoughs, Martinus woke me up from them.

-Bro, what's up? You seem a bit off today?-He asked.

Should I tell him the truth?

I mean, he is my twin, but some things are just too personal.

Better no.

I'll just leave it for myself.

-No, it's nothing.-I lied.

Lies, lies, lies.

I hate them.

I feel guilty.

I just lied to my own twin.

Own twin.

But I did that on purpose.

It's better like this.

Anyways, he'll think I'm dumb.

Nobody understands me the way Ivey does.

Nobody looks at me the way she does.

Great, she's in my head...again!

Damn it, Marcus, chill!

I'll just try to get used to that she doesn't feel the same towards me.

The only good way to forget her is - to ignore her.

Is that too hard?

I'm not sure can I ignore that damn beautiful eyes.

I'm searching only for them everyday.

One day, I'd like to wake up seeing those eyes.

Those beautiful eyes.

Those Ivey's eyes.

-Ivey's POV-
I hate life.

Why is it so hard?

Now I have mixed up feelings.

Marcus is cute, funny, caring, lovely...

But Jack, he is the opposite.

He is energic, he is ambitious...

But I don't want to be used again.

I'll just try to avoid them both...

It will be a hard mission, Jack is my bully, Marcus is my friend.

Yea...Friend...is he?

I mean, does he really see me like a friend?

I think he's just being friendly

He is a good person, maybe he feels bad to see a person alone on breaks.

I don't know.

But that can become toxic.

Very toxic.

And I'm already into him.

Well, partly.

But, I need to get over him.

I can try hard ro ignore him.

A hard mission, I know, but if I don't want to be hurt again, I'll have to make it.

I'll survive.

I just need to see them everyday at school, isn't hard. Is it?
Holaaa
I'm back, again.
Well, hope you liked this chapter.
It was a bit 'dreamy' chapter.
Yes, as you can see, I don't have a lot of inspiration...Sorry😭
Word count:744
Question: Fav song?
Personal answer: Can't choos🤣Every M&M song probably😂❤️
I love you guys so much❤️
P.s.-Does anyone even answer these questions? Should I stop asking them?😂
Bye now 😂😂😂❤️