Loving Lies (Book 2)

Chapter 15

Did I die? Was this the 'my life just flashed before my eyes' part? I hope it was. A replay of my life was in front of me. Surrounding me was darkness, the only light coming from the clips.

I watch the clips and keep my monotone face up. My life was really sad at first but it got better. Then it all went downhill....the only good of this was I now knew which memories of mine Thanos had changed and how they actually were.

My lips twitch up as the scene where I catch Loki taking pictures in my phone comes up. I remember setting it up as my home screen. The memories become faster and slow down as mine and his first kiss played. I looked away though, I didn't want to fall for him harder.

When I look back up it the kiss had passed and soon it showed me destroying LA. I watch as I begin to freeze everyone. How..how could I do something like that? I truly deserved Fury's torture....

The screen gets smaller and smaller; no wait, it's getting farther. It goes farther and now I could just see a white light. A walk towards it without hesitation.

"(Y/n)!" A voice rings. After that it was multiple people saying my name....and I knew who they were.

"Sis come back....please," Kristen cried. Sorry Kristy but I don't want to.... I can finally be at peace.

"Come on kid," Tony whispers. My steps slow down. There was so much pain in his voice.

"(Y/n) you are coming back to me right now. I command you or I am dragging you back myself! You can't leave me here! I....I love you," Loki whispers. And that's when my steps stop. There was that phrase I didn't want to hear.

I never wanted to hear him say it. Because I knew....no matter what he did....I'd always love him back.  But I didn't want to! I didn't ask for this! I didn't ask to fall for him! And I especially didn't ask for him to fall for me!

"Fuck you Loki," I whisper to myself as I turn around and walk into the darkness. When I couldn't see anything at all my eyes snap open. My lungs felt like they were being crushed.

I get up quickly and take gulps of air as the room span around me. When I felt myself falling, a male figure quickly catches me. Out of anger I push off him because I clearly knew who it was. I fall on my butt but get up with the help of Bruce.

"(Y/n) I-" he begins but I turn away, tears pouring down my eyes.

"Go away," I say in my raspy voice.

"(Y/n)..." Loki trails.

"Hey if she wants you away then I recommend you leave," Clint tells him. Thor pats Loki's shoulder and takes him out the room.

"He's gone," Bruce says, patting my shoulder. I move away from him and go into the corner. For some reason corners made me feel safer. I slide down and put my head on my knees.

"Hey give her some space," Natasha whispers to someone. I hear multiple footsteps fade away.

"They're gone," Bruce says from next to me. I raise my head and look at him.

"It's nice to see you're not completely lost," Bruce tells me. I sniffle and look ahead, out to nothing.

"You know how panicked we all got? I almost Hulked out," he tells me and points at a smashed computer screen that was clearly torn in half. Damn....

"Sorry," I whisper to him.

"It's fine, you flatlined for a few seconds but you came back to us in the end," he tells me.

"I hate him," I tell Bruce. Why was I telling him this? I guess because now I had my memories straight and I knew I could trust Bruce....and Steve, Tony, Natasha, Clint, and Thor.

"Do you really?" He asks. I feel a hot tear go down as I shake my head.

"I saw a flashback of my life and I could hear you guys talking, telling me to come back, but I didn't want to. I've felt the worst of pain all my life. I've been abused, tortured, raped, you name it and I was so over it, I just wanted to die. Now I had a chance to but then I heard his stupid I love you...." I tell him honestly.

"Well first I'm glad you came back, and second love is a complicated thing. But your heart wants what it wants and this time it's pretty clear. And I just want to let you know that no matter how bad it was back then, there people here now willing to make new memories and replace all those bad ones. Just give us a chance," he tells me and pats my shoulder.

"Hey doc they need you in the um other lab," Tony says walking in. He looked like as if he was on his first date, so nervous.

"What? Oh ok I'll be right there," Bruce says and gets up. Was I going to be alone now?

"Hey Tony can you stay with (y/n) the last thing I want is her to be alone," Bruce says. He was probably afraid I'd commit suicide in this room which was fair fear.

"M-me?" He asks. I could tell he was excited.

"Yeah..." Bruce says looking at him weirdly. He shakes his head and walks out. Well I do trust Tony now....

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Ya girl failed all her tests.....and is studying for one tmrw I hate life. But yeah, y'all liking the story? I feel like book 2 put it to shame....yeah.....OK NOW BYE I HAVE TO GO STUDYYY ♥️♥️♥️🥰🥰