Loving Lies (Book 2)

Chapter 34

"I think he heard you," Thor whispers.

"Obviously bitch," I hiss. How stupid was he?

What do I do in a situation like this?

"Uhhh how much did you hear?" I ask Loki.

"Thor, my guy, you're hot," Loki says, mocking the way I said it. I get up and walk to Loki, whose arms were crossed as he held an annoyed look.

"See you didn't hear all of it. I said I love you before that," I tell him.

"You still called my brother hot," He spits out.

"If I'm going to be completely honest, Thor is hot," I mumble with a shrug. Loki's eyes widen and he looks at me shocked, trying to process if what I just said did actually come from my mouth.

"And so is Steve, Tony, Clint, Bruce, and you," I add, "every one of my guy friends are hot."

"How long did it take to come it with that excuse?" He asks slowly.

"A few seconds," I tell him honestly. He scoffs and transports away.

"I think I messed up," I say to Thor.

"Give him some time. My brother loves you," he says with a wink.

"Meanwhile would you like to hear stories from his youth?" Thor asks in a louder tone.

"Yes!" I say excitedly.

"No. She's mine. Back off," Loki says behind me. Before I could even properly be scared from his sudden presence I was back in my room.

"Stop scaring me!" I shout at him.

"Scared?" He asks with a smirk. Two can play this game.

"No because it sends me into flashback mode from when Justin would do the same thing and the same amount of fear I felt when he'd be near me surges through me when you suddenly come up behind me like that," I explain. I wasn't exactly lying when I said that; and I'm sure he realized that as well.

His smirk slowly changes to one of shock, realization, and guiltiness.

"O-oh. I didn't mean it in that sort of matter, I apologize," he rambles out.

"I'll accept it if you aren't mad at me anymore," I tell him. Realization hits him once more.

"Wait, I'm supposed be mad here!" Loki says.

"I'm mad," he repeats, crossing his arms. I step closer to him and rest my hand on his arms.

"And I love you," I tell him honestly. Loki's furrowed eyebrows soften a bit and I could tell his pout was even more forced now.

"I'm still mad"

"And I still love you. Always have, and always will. No matter how hot someone maybe, you'll always be the one for me," I gush as I move my palms to rest on his blushing cheeks.

"I-I have a reputation," he grumbles. I pull his face down to meet mine and smile.

"Not when you're with me," I tell him and connect our lips.

Loki momentarily moves back, disconnecting us, and I could feel his breath lingering on my lips.

For that long second my heart dropped. But only for a second. Only till he let electricity spark through our lips once more.

If anyone were to look at us they'd believe it to be the perfectly soft kiss. But the both of us knew that to be untrue.

We were both afraid, holding back. It seemed as if every moment our lips together would cause the each of harm.

I guess both Loki and I had noticed the trend in our lives. Whenever we were good and together, something would come up to drive us further apart.

I didn't know about him but I was tired. Tired of being so restrained against him right now. Tired of him looking so iffy every time we were to show love.

"Stop," I say, resting my hands on his chest to push him back a bit.

"....did...did I do something wrong?" He asks, already looking guilty.

"We both did. Loki I need you to realize that none of it was your fault. Yes it was mine for not listening but I realize that. I'm not leaving you, ever. Ok?" I ask. The next time his lips were on mine I could feel the difference.

He was more passionate with his kiss, and the space between us gone.

My hands on his chest moves to be around his neck while his hand came to rest on the side of my neck, holding it in place as his lips against mine pushed against it. His other hand, meanwhile, simply rested on my side.

As seconds passed by I could begin his need begin to grow. His arm shifted from my side to around me, canceling out any chance of air passing through us.

Even though I knew I could trust him, that I was most probably willing to go all out with him....I couldn't.

My stupid mind wouldn't stop rehashing the past. Connecting his need with the need of Justin. Loki's was true, he loved me. I know he loves me.

Loki wasn't Justin. Justin was toxic, negatively demanding, abusive. My Loki wasn't anything like that.

"Hey...." Loki whispers. My anxiety thoughts snap out and I focus on us.

"Y-Yeah?" I ask out of breath. Both his hands move to rest on my cheek as he looks at me with a tad bit concern showing.

"Are you ok?" He questions, out of breath as well.

"My stupid brain won't stop connecting our moment to other moments," I shrug and look away, guilty I ruined our moment.

"There is no need to rush. I will not do anything to you what he did. Come it's late," he says and holds my hand, running his other hand through his hair to fix it as well.

"I ruined the moment," I think out loud.

"You did nothing of that sort. We'll have more moments, and if you decide to stop me during those I am perfectly content in doing so," he explains softly.

"I'll try not to," I chuckle. He nods and turns his head towards my bed.

"Do you want me to stay?" He asks.

"Why wouldn't I?" I scoff. Loki smiles softly and I move to turn off the lights.

"Uh you get situated I'll change," I say and head into the bathroom.

Smiling to myself, I change out of my old clothes and into something more comfortable.

"Why the smile?" Loki asks, seeing the smile that was still set on my face. I slip into bed next to him and shake my head.

"Oh nothing," I tell him.

"As long as you are smiling," he says and wraps his arm around me.

Just that I love you...