Love and War

Chapter 22

Candice's POV

"let's all get faded Call up the team... Hands in the air give a fuck about a nigga, give a fuck about a bitch too The top is a lonely spot, Friends in a phony slot all that shit true I ain't even got the energy stop pretending like you're into me You don't even had a dose yet, shit don't matter, We ain't got the chemistry. I... need a little time just to breathe, Just to kinda get my life on the right track I can give you my heart for the night but when it's over you gotta give it right back Hell yes It's like that, Sick and tired of falling in the right traps It a cold world out here bitch, I'm a keep my heart frozen til the ice crack Feels like something's missing I feel fucking distant, I don't trust no one, Especially not these niggas, I don't trust these niggas,They might catch me slipping, I don't trust these niggas or none of these bitches, Call em up I'm drinking I wanna get wasted, Call em up Call em up I know I smoke but I wanna get fade, Call em up Damn, Seems like my head is in the wrong spot, Cells on overdrive filled by the wrong thought Any battle worth winning is the one fought So my logic beat emotion by a long shot These nigga recycling the same line Bitches getting played hard like overtime Guard up gotta hurdle to get over mine Eyes closed cause I see you better with an open mind Damn that's all right, That's all right, I ain't know, I fell for it, I caught on, I got that, You came close And I got some hidden feelings that I can't show So I can either bury the hatchet Or just keep digging the same hole Feels like something's missing I feel fucking distant, I don't trust no one, Especially not these niggas, I don't trust these niggas, They might catch me slipping, I don't trust these niggas or none of these bitches, hear me out, Hear me out, Fuck the words while they are coming out your mouth Let them words have a fuck you baby Watch my middle finger push it out Whispers to the side Fiction and some lies But I really ain't surprised Cause everybody know there ain't shit I gotta hide Well you tell me that you love me when you see me, Feels like a billion motherfuckers don't like me no more Ooh yeah they hate me now Feels like they really wanna break me down These bitches ain't on my level In result they hate themselves You being everybody but tell me why the fuck you still ain't yourself Sometimes I feel a need to just thank myself Cause I'm real as fuck hoe even when I ain't myself I wish I could say the same for you But we all know that shit ain't true That phony shit just make me laugh Damn y'all bitches must hate me bad All y'all niggas so fake it's sad And my ex boy gone make me spazz Let go, Let go, Let go til you don't feel that shit Hanging from your fingertips Tingles down your spleen and shit Friends are gone be separated Feelings gone be freedom stripped That's the fucking life we live... full of inconveniences Feels like something's missing I feel fucking distant, I don't trust no one, oh oh trust issues"

This bitch talking bout fake she's fucking fake making songs about me but idgaf that's cool I'll come back for her ass ima find that nigga Brandon hook him up with some producers and we gunna go after her Amaru and Eddie I will show muthafuckas how to be faulty

Amaru's POV

Camrens song is real nice I like that shit but her spazzing on me? yea fucking right. when I got home her shit was gone that's cool with me too I guess we officially done ain't no if ands or buts about it she chose up. So right now ima be happy with my money shit it's never turned on me before. making music fucking bitches that's all that is.

Camren's pov

6 months later

Dee:" man I missed you"

Me:" I missed you too but yo big ass Is suffocating me and I'm supposed to be yo big sister"

Dee:" oh my bad"

We laugh I really did miss him it's been three years since I saw him. he's about 6 foot now and real buff and he grew up to be real handsome some of his features remind me of Daniel but I don't let Daniel scare me anymore I'm in a real happy place right now I am. Candice still gets on radio talking bout me but idgaf. I see Amaru of course we on the same label we don't talk other then hi and bye and I'm good with that I don't gotta worry bout coming home to other girls another argument or worrying bout when he gunna come home

Dee:" you want to see mom.. she's really cleaned up and I think she wants to talk to you"

Even though I don't want to I know I need to. I needa talk to her and my dad

Me:" yea"

Dee:" come in"

I take a deep breath then follow behind him.

Mom:" Cammie omg I missed you so much look how you've grown I'm so proud of you"

Me:" hey mom I missed you too"

Mom:" look baby I'm sorry for all I put you threw I knew I knew what Daniel was doing to you but I didn't know how to stop it. Your so beautiful and strong I used to tell you was ugly but I just wanted to break you because I was broken. Dee told me about you selling your body to a man so you could feed y'all and I just want to say thank you for stepping up to the plate when I didn't and your more of a woman at 19 then I have been my whole life you may not believe me but I'm sorry I love you I know it ain't gunna be easy but please forgive me Cammie"

Me:" mom I forgave you a long time ago I learned it ain't good to hold grudges. cuz the only person it affects was me.. And everything I went threw made me a better person"

I give her a hug while she cries on my shoulders. my dad walks downstairs it's crazy they together now but they couldn't be together for me

Cameron:" hey Camren it's good to see you baby I heard you music your really good"

Me:" hey Cameron thank you I try"

Cameron:" why'd you never tell me that was happening to you"

Me:" you didn't care... when I was younger I'd think you'd come and save me and when you didn't I gave up on you"

Cameron:" I'm sorry Cammie "

Me:" it's fine I'm over it now I don't want to talk about it k... let's just build new memories"

We spend the rest of the day hanging out. I'm happy but don't get shit twisted I ain't forgot what they done to me that's why I'm so fucked up now. I'm fatherless I'm motherless I'm nobody's daughter