Love and War

Chapter 41

Lulus POV

I can't believe Amaru went behind my back and did that shit.... I knew there was a possibility but why break his heart he was in love with Lilian and just cuz they ain't blood don't mean nothing. he kicked me out he took all the stuff he bought for me he let me keep all the baby stuff but he just kicked me out like I dont mean shit to him. it hurts I wish I could go back in time but I can't so I gotta be a woman and take care of my daughter alone

Camrens POV

6 months later

Amaru's Been scaring me lately his new album that just dropped he's on some like fuck the world shit it's just him and his son. when he comes get sincere he don't talk to me. suge hired and extra producer for when Amaru's in recording because him and dollar still tripping. Anyway on the other hand sinceres six now I feel like it was just yesterday when I found out I was pregnant. Ashley had her baby another little girl Jacqueline Idk how they do it with three little girls. Dee got drafted to the NFL. And for once I can say I'm happy with just my son

Sincere:" mama look at dad's new video"

He grabs the remote and turns it on mtv

"I guess you knew and blew a good thing, baby. Bye baby, I guess you know why I walked away Thought we'd walked to the altar that would've been an awesome day Did counselling, couldn't force me to stay Something happens when you say I do, we go astray Why did we mess it up, we was friends we had it all Reason you don't trust men, that was me and your daddy's fault. He abandoned you, in the past you caught me cheating with other women Fuck that gotta do with now. Here's the keys to the newest truck Louie bags, we burnin' cash, now baby do it up. No matter who you fuck, that was before me Wanted you as my shawty since I saw you spitting rhymes that was way back in time. Should've saw the man in angry black women. Ashes of a demon, I'm leaving. I guess you knew and blew a good thing, baby (Bye baby) You know I'm saying bye-bye (Bye-bye baby) Cause I'm sayin' bye-bye (Bye baby) Cause I'm sayin' bye-bye I guess you knew and blew a good thing, baby. Bye baby, I guess you know why I had to leave Seven months in your pregnancy, 'bout to have my seed Let's take it back some years, rewind it to the happy years Same time, different year, I was diggin' ya flow Then I tatted you on my arm so niggas would know I thought no one could stop us, matching gold watches. I was your Johnny Depp, you was my Janis Joplin Yet, the cuter version, yet I knew you personally Better than you knew yourself and I knew this for certain Crib in the Dominican you got away from everybody You screaming at the racist cops in Miami was probably The highlight of my life, like "yo look at my wife". Gangsta, me and twenty cops 'bout to fight, crazy night Bailed you out, next morning we got clean Like it never happened and later we at that Heat game Just another day in the life of two people in love But it wasn't enough, so baby guess what bye baby Listen, could you imagine writing your deposition? With you paying out the ass, and I'm talking half Not some but half. Half of your soul, half of your heart you leaving behind It's either that or die, I wanted peace of mind And all I seen was selfish cowards, under they breath Saying "why did Don trust her? ", but look at yourself, speak louder bruh You live with your babymoms and scared to make an honest woman out of her. And make her your life, fake bitch you ain't even a lie. At least I can say I tried plus enjoyed the ride Plus we got our little boy, my little joy and pride. He got my nose, my grill, your color, my eyes. Next go round I hope I pick the truest type and watch me do it all again It's a beautiful life, aight Goodbye"

I start crying In the video it had like a young teenage couple they do most of the stuff me and Amaru did together good and bad times. Then they grow up have a kid basically it was like a little movie of us

Sincere:" why you crying you ain't like it"

Me:" yea I did... give mommy a kiss"

He kisses my cheek. it's really over for me and Amaru there's no more us. well since I stopped making music I don't really do anything I got my fashion line and stuff like that but I'm always pretty much bored especially when sinceres at school or with his dad and today my little man leaving me. I finish packing his bag then I hear a knock. I take a deep breath and open the door sincere runs up and jumps in his arms it looks like Amaru's squeezing the life out of him. he puts him down sincere runs upstairs to get his bag

Me:" I like your song"

Amaru:" oh yea?.. you heard it"

Me:" yea the video was nice too"

Amaru:" yea... I was just thinking about you I wrote down my feelings and just made a song"

Sincere:" I'm ready dad bye mom"

Amaru:" hold on man... cam you know I'm going on tour soon"

Me:" how long"

Amaru:" 3 months so I was thinking maybe I can keep him for the month that I'm still here"

I stare into his eyes and I just can't take it I try my hardest just not to cry I just keep telling myself he's finna leave just wait a minute. finally they leave and I just break down again I don't even make it to the couch I pull my knees into my chest and cry

Amaru's POV

Me:" aye man you got yo back pack"

Sincere:" oh no I forgot sorry"

Me:" it's cool little nigga we ain't far"

I make a u turn then head back to Camrens. I put the car in park then We get out the run inside I know Camren ain't lock the door she never do

Me:" aye cam we forgot his... Cam what's wrong"

Sincere:" mommy don't cry I'm here"

I watch my six year old son comfort his mom how I once used too. It's weird my sons like a grown man

Me:" sincere go upstairs in your room watch some tv"

He kisses his mom and wipes her tears then goes upstairs like I ask

Me:" what's wrong"

Camren:" nothing... what you guys forget"

Me:" don't try and change the subject"

Camren:" it's nothing I'm ok really just go Maru... you remember bye baby"

I pick her up like she's a new born baby and I carry her to her room I take of my Versace shirt kick off my shoes and lay her on my bare chest I feel the warm tears dripping on me every so often and her tracing the tattoo of her face on my right arm with her freshly polish black stiletto nails. I hate when she gets those fake nails. I bury my face into the top of her head I love the smell of her hair it always smells like green apples.

Camren:" I know I said we was done but I always thought in the back of my head we'd get back together you remember that day you told me we was gunna get married? I believed you that's what I been holding on to this whole time but I guess it's really over huh?"

Before I can answer she looks up at me and starts kissing me I don't stop her even though I know I should I love her and I don't want nothing more but to be with her but I know she deserves better plus it's like when we together our relationship is toxic we always arguing and I just don't want my son to see that shit. and I let it go even further we end up having sex at the moment it felt so right but deep down inside I know it was wrong. I get up and start putting back on my clothes

Camren:" where you going"

Me:" cam.. I ain't mean to let it go that far... when I brought you up here I was just tryna comfort my friend.... I want to be with you but I just know ima find away to break yo heart again I don't want to put you threw that... you deserve better then me"

Camren:" just play me for a fucking fool huh? you was tryna comfort me... a real friend wouldn't fuck me then get up and leave... whatever Amaru just go leave and leave my son here too... we don't need you"

Me:" I'm telling you I ain't intend for that to happen... You gunna start that petty shit now I can't take my son"

She jumps up and gets in my face

Camren:" no fuck you Amaru you can't take my son! go ahead and leave... leave the only loyal bitch you ever met I fucking hate you so much I wish I never met yo ass"

Me:" Camren! Keep you fucking hands out my face I told you bout that shit... fuck you too I ain't gotta deal with this shit if I want to take my son I can"

I walk out her room and walk in my sons. he feel asleep so I just pick him up but I'm stopped by Camren at the door

Camren:" put him down Amaru if you don't ima call you probation officer and get yo ass sent to jail"

Me:" you such a petty bitch I swear dawg you gunna get me locked up to where our son gunna be without me"

Camren:" put him down you won't have to go to jail"