Playboy

6

Colby
I wake up and look up, I see Brennen fast asleep with his arm around me tightly. I attempt to grab my phone and fail, he moves. "Morning." He says, I smile. "Morning." I say, I grab my phone and check the time, it's 12:22 and Sam gets home at 12:30, I have 8 minutes to get showered, dressed, and home. "I need to leave." I say getting up, I grab one of the brolby sweatshirts that he has and my pants, and go shower.

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I'm now out of the shower and I've wasted 5 minutes. I quickly get dressed, fix my hair, and leave. As I drive I check the time, it's now 12:34...I really hope Sam isn't home yet, when I get to the house it's 12:40, I pull in the driveway and see his car, I hit the steering wheel in panic. "Dammit!" I yell to myself, I take a deep breath and try to calm my anxiety, I calm down a little bit but start to cry, I shut my eyes tightly and then look at Sam's car. I wipe away my tears and go inside, when I open the door I see Sam sitting on the couch, he looks at me. "Hey Colby." He says, I walk over slowly and sit next to him on the couch. "Jake told me that you went out on Friday, and you haven't been home since then." Sam says, my eyes widen, Jake then comes out into the room. "Colby where did you go all weekend?" He asks, I start to panic a little. "I went out..." I say, Sam rolls his eyes. "Where out? Is it really that big of a deal just tell me." He says, little does he know it actually is a big deal...I look down and try to avoid answering the question. "You act like your mom caught you sneaking out....I'm your boyfriend." Sam says, I look up at him, furrowing my eyebrows. "We never got that far, we just had a thing." I say, he sarcastically laughs. "I was making an assumption that you wanted that...I mean come on Colby." He says, I look down again, he takes my hand. "Where were you all weekend?" He asks again, I feel tears start to form in my eyes and my heart beats faster. "I went to Brennen's." I say, he looks at me. "Ok...why are you about to cry?" He asks, I sniffle. "Did something happen? Did he hurt you?" He asks. "No...its nothing." I lie, he takes a deep breath and kisses my cheek, he then rests his head on my shoulder. "Are you sure? You seem really upset about something." He says, tucking his head further into my hoodie. "Yeah I'm fine." I lie, he lifts his head up and sniffs my hair. "did you shower there? Your hair smells good." He says, I relax a bit. "Yeah." I say, he kisses my cheek. "Is this Brennen's sweatshirt?" He asks, my eyes widen. "Y-yeah. Why?" I ask, he grabs the sleeve and smells it, backing away. "It smells like sex...Colby I can't believe you!" Sam hollers, I know I'm done but I still lie. "What are you talking about? We didn't do anything." I say. "I know when you're lying Colby and you're lying, you and Brennen had sex and you know it so stop lying to my face." He says, tears form in his eyes and start running down his cheeks, I look down. "I'm sorry Sam." I say, he starts crying. "That's not gonna do anything Colby! You had sex with someone after you told me you liked me!" He says, I roll my eyes. "You never made it clear if we were dating or not...neither of us asked each other out." I say, Sam gets up and stomps his way upstairs, I hear his door slam shut. "Yo what was that?" Aaron asks. "Sam's pissed off." I say, Aaron sits next to me. "Why is he mad?" He asks. "I slept with Brennen." I say, his eyes widen. "Oh um...I didn't know you swung that way...that seems like a silly reason to be mad." He says, I put my head in my hands. "He told me he's my boyfriend, which he was never established, I mean I guess we had a thing for a day but he never made it clear that he wanted something with me, and now he's mad because I slept with someone else." I say, Aaron comes closer to me. "Just go talk to him, if you explain the situation like you just did to me I'm sure he'll understand." He says, I nod. "I'll try." I say, he pats my back and walks away, I walk up to Sam's room and knock, he opens the door. "What." He says, tears running down his face. "Can we talk?" I ask, he stares at me. "No." He slams the door in my face, I slide down the wall, what the fuck did I do wrong? I seriously can not be the bad guy right now. "Please Sam." I say, no response. "GO THE HELL AWAY!" He screams, I get up and go downstairs, climbing up on the counter and grabbing the bottle of scotch from the top of the fridge, I plop down on the counter and pop it open, I drink it as if I'm in one of those dramatic romcoms, y'know...the ones where the boyfriend cheats on the girlfriend and he thinks he's gonna get her back...yeah, those ones.

Sam
I sit in my room and stare at the soaked sheets, I've been crying for at least an hour now. I've never been heartbroken before but I think Colby changed that, for this short hour I've felt nothing but upset and thinking about him is anxiety inducing, I run out of my room into the bathroom and make sure the door is locked, I sit in there for a couple minutes and cry, I then hear a knock. "Sam are you ok?" Jake asks. "Yeah." I say, he tries opening the door. "Are you sure? Why is the door locked?" He asks, I ignore him. What if I just had to use the bathroom? Privacy doesn't exist in this house apparently. "Well...Colby's sitting on the counter drinking his depression away so you might wanna talk to him." He says, I hear him walk away, talking to him is the last thing I wanna do right now, I get up off the floor and look at myself in the mirror, my blue eyes continue to cry and become more red. I look at the razor sitting on the sink, I grab it, I then sit down again and look at it. "Sam why?" I say to myself, I lay the razor on my arm and cry, I start sliding it up and down my arm quickly, as I continue I see and feel a bunch of little cuts appear, I stop while my heart continues beating out of my chest. Why the fuck did I just do that to myself? What has gotten into me? I'm so dumb. "Sam....it's Colby....can you unlock the door?" He asks, I ignore him, why did I do this? This isn't like me, I'd never do something like this. I'm regretting this already, I feel sick to my stomach. "Sam please." He says, I continue to ignore him, I'm starting to get dizzy, I look at the tiny pool of my blood on my arm and watch it drip onto my sweat pants, I try and stop it but it continues to bleed, I hear the door open, Colby stands and looks at me.

Colby
Once I get the door open I look at Sam, he had blood on his pants, hands, arm, everywhere. "S-Sam...what happened?" I say, he looks up at me. "You hurt me." He says, I go over to him and pick him up, he cries as I place him next to the sink. "Why!" He yells, I get the towel and wet it, I then grab his arm. "Why are you helping me!" He yells, moving all around so I can't help him. "SHUT AND STAY STILL!" I scream, he silences immediately and lets me take his arm, I clean the blood off of it and then go into the cabinet for peroxide. "This is gonna hurt so squeeze something." I say, I start to pour it on the cuts, he cries again and squeezes my arm tightly, I run out of the room and get the first aid kit under the sink, getting bandages and going back to him, wrapping it. I pick him up and take him into my room, I shut the door and let him down. "Sit." I say, he sits, I sit next to him. "Why did you do that?" I ask, he shrugs. "You hurt my feelings." He says, I hate hearing him say that. "I'm sorry, you were never clear on if we were dating or not, I didn't mean to hurt any feelings." I say, he looks at me, he moves closer and lays his head on my shoulder. "I'm sorry I wasn't clear, I don't want any fights between us...you're my best friend. I love you." He says, but the thing is.....I don't know if I love him like that.