Everything I wish to say

#4 Empty soul

The soul of mine is empty
When will you allow the entry?

I'm waiting here, knocking on the doors of your heart
But you giving me a cold shoulder
Left me here for getting older
It's getting really hard

Whenever I saw you with another
I can't control my fear
Of losing you
And really all thanks to you

'Cause you made me realise that I can never lose you
Since you were never mine, in the first place
You actually showed me my worth, my value

Which is none but zero
And not waiting for tomorrow

I tried to kill myself
But then it was never ourself
It was never 'us'
So why would you care
Even if I'm not here

You killed me everyday
Even without knowing
All you do was shoving
Me far and far away

Was I so bad?
That you even refuse to acknowledge me now
Was I making you gag?
That you said you want to get rid of me anyhow..