Love Or Insanity

Chapter 6

(Warning some depressed cinnamon roll is in action just kidding!)
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I went to school to find everyone waiting for someone

"Y/n!Join us!We heard from each other that Karma has a crush on Okuda and she has the same feelings

"R-Right"I fake smiled infront of them

They were shocked"Y/n . . . You never smile . . ."Isogai said I sat at the end Isogai excused himself and sat near me

"You know you could tell me anything"I shook my head
"Its nothing"

Right nothing

How long could I keep the act I dont know

Karma came in with flowers he was blushing then Okuda came in she was also blushing

"U-Um . . . I like you"Okuda said she was blushing"W-well me too"He smirked

They hugged he kissed her forehead and everyone was cheering

But Isogai was there worried for me suddenly stray tears fell on my cheeks Isogai was shocked

"Y/n . . ."I hugged him as he blushed"Y/n you like Karma dont you?"He sighed I shook my head"I dont want to love anyone"I stood up wiping my tears"Y/n theres a park near the campus go there"He smiled I nodded and went there

I walked around the park

I had tears and it was snowing

I didnt know why but I wanted to cry

Im hurt

I dont know why

Was it because Okuda likes Karma?

Or was it because I was jealous?

I want to cry but I had to go back to home

But my body wont move I sat on the bench hugging myself tears falling along with the snow I shivered

I dont know why

I just felt the need to cry

Cold tears fell from my face

My eyes stung

I tried to focus on assassinating Karma

Ive only had a few attempts but it seems like I cant kill him

I want to

But I just cant

When I was about to kill him I couldnt

Tears fell

My eyes hurt

"Why?"

Uh-oh 

My depressions coming back . . .

I took my knife from my skirt tracing it on my skin

"Help"I held my head hugging my knees

Tears kept on falling

Uh-oh . . .

Shes here . . .

I felt her hug me

Kill them

I cried

Kill them

Uh-oh . . .

Shes making me kill again . . .

Someone please help . . .

"Can the world just accept me?"

Their bringing back memories . . . Your emotions . . . Just finish your job and kill him

But I cant make myself

Kill him

No

No

No

"I cant"

I then heard footsteps

"Okuda you have ice cream on your cheek"I looked up and saw Karma and Okuda

More tears came out

Do I love him?

Why should I?

Im supposed to be hated no one loves me right?

I stood up walking away from them holding my mouth from the muffled cries

I fell to my knees when I was in an alley the snow fell on my head

Tears just flowed like crazy

Then I saw feet I looked up and saw Isogai"Y/n"He hugged me

"Isogai~kun help me"He turned to look at me and saw my eyes were staring at something

My hands shaking as the silver knife traced my arm cutting it blood oozing out

His eyes widened he took the knife and held my hands"Do you love him?"I nodded

"I accept it now but what now?All I need to do now is to kill him so yeah its easier that way"I smiled his eyes softened

"Y/n . . . I like you but I know you dont like me back so im fine with it but it just hurts to see you like this you were always so cold scary emotionless"

"And now your fragile"

"I know I want to kill him"

"Quickly before depression eats me whole"Isogai nodded giving my knife back

"Go"

I stood up I saw Karma and Okuda sitting together sharing the same ice cream I went near him and raised my knife I plunged time slowed as Okuda noticed it and pushed Karma he looked at me wide eyed

"Why would you try to kill me!?I have a person to love before I didnt so I let you now I do I wont let you end my life!"I sighed

"Its going to be harder then"I said he looked confused

"I have to kill you before it eats me whole no not "It" before 'She' eats me whole"I raised my hand and plunged but he dodged

"Stop dodging let me end this quickly"I lunged at him he dodged

"Y/n!Stop already!"I stopped"Now leave me and Okuda alone"I looked to the sky"Fine"But then

I suddenly went dizzy I closed my eyes and looked infront to see her

"I'll do it for you"My eyes shook"No"

"Yes I will"She lunged at me and she was in control

She lunged at Karma as I screamed repeatedly

"No!!"

She hit his abdomen and he fell clutching his stomach"What the hell!Stop!"She smirked"Im just starting"

She kicked him Okuda went infront of him"Y-You have to g-"She kicked her aside"Too cheesy"

Karma looked at her"Okuda!!"

I suddenly had control I held my head in pain"Run"He looked at me confused

"I said run dammit!"He scrambled away taking Okuda with him

Thats when I lost it all

The next time I woke up I saw I was sitting on a pile of human remains

"You did this"I said smirking"I like it"

She hugged me

He long white dress flew with her long blond hair

I will give you more . . .

I nodded and let her control