Love Or Insanity

Chapter 17

I stare at the pillow I was squeezing tight as my heart raced

I remembered

Soft

His lips were on mine

Soft and precious soon leaving mine as I gasped and he hugged me"I-I didnt know what got into me!"He yelled hugging me as he saw tears on my face

"Im sorry im sorry"I smiled caressing his soft red locks

"I love you too but . . ."

"-If I were to love my target-"

"-Would you be worth it?"

"Why does it have to be me?"I muttered crying at this point

"If only we met at different circumstances we could be but we cant"I said to Karma as he slowly stood up nodding sadly

"Why?Why did I have to be the one to kill him?"I said

"I will wait for your answer when your ready Y/n"Karma said turning his back

I cried soon sniffling"Why!?"I covered myself with the pillows

After he left I muttered"If only I wasn't a sinner I would have gladly accepted"

I cried on the bed trying to comprehend what was happening

I cant

I just couldnt

I stared up the sky and muttered sadly as a tear escaped my face

"Im a sinner who had dirtied their hands and because of that I'm not worthy of your heart"

I stared at the ceiling looking at my hands fading to blood and fading back to normal

"Im a sinner"I said

Soon they came

Your a sinner

I held my head"No"

You killed my family

"No!You got it all wrong!"

You cursed our fate and now we curse yours

"Yada!Stop already please!"Soon I was shaking

And I saw their faces covered in blood the wound I gave them all fresh and new and a small child crying with her teddy

You killed my family!

Mommy!daddy!

What did we do?

Help me!

Curse you!

You the great sinner

I cried soon running out the house away from the voices

No one will accept who you are when they know your a sinner!

"No!He will!Im sure of it!"

You are not certain but we are!

"I wont be an outcast anymore!I wont be the same useless unlovable girl I was before!"I screamed soon stopping crying

You are a sinner who no one would love

"Im not"I said

"Im not"

I cried and walked somewhere and a stab came into my chest

"Ak-Y-Your supposed to be dead"I said shocked at the grey haired female

"Alyssa!"I yelled as she pulled the dagger out of me

"Oh my didnt I tell you that I had created a cure to death?"She said grinning

I was on the ground clutching my stomach

I gasped as she stomped on my head"You killed them"She said her eyes widening

"My family,My boyfriend,My friends,My life"Each word I gasped at the pain as she stepped on my head harder

"Ah!Stop!"I chocked out"You killed them"She smirked"And now I break you"She says wandering off"I will get you I swear L/n"

"I will break you until your nothing but an empty vessel"She muttered as I laid there motionless

The next day I woke up on a hospital bed with someone unfamiliar next to me

A girl about 11 or so,she had long pink hair with pink eyes

She was sleeping I slowly sat up with my arms I groaned

And she woke up with the sound

"Miss!You shouldt be up!"She warned me I obeyed and laid back down

"You were on the ground bleeding so I went to call the police and ambulance"

I shook my head"Kids shouldnt be here"

She giggled"Im here because I said I knew you!"I chuckled nervously

"Your something alright"She tilted her head"Eh?"

"Its nothing"I looked away

"Anyways can I go?"

"In the next hour or so"I smiled

It was quiet hard I must say

"Nee~san your not smiling"She said sternly I sweatdropped"Its . . . Nevermind"

"Did anyone else visit me?"She shook her head

"Only me"I looked at her blankly

"Oh"I managed to say as I clutched the mattress

"Not even one?"She shook her head

I sighed getting up holding nothing but the thing connected to the top of my palm

I took it out it was bleeding

I sigh not feeling a thing as I walk to the door"Wa-Wait!"She said

"My names Alexandra!Call me Alexa!And your Y/n~neesan right?"I nodded

"Well see you around!"She said going out the door before me

She doesnt react to me taking out the tube and walking away like there was no pain,weird

I shook it off walking out changing in the bathroom

I went outside walking to school

Even after that small hospital scene im pretty much confused

I entered and saw something worse than Okajima finding a girlfriend

That girl

"Alyssa"I cursed her name and walked towards her

Everyone was having a good time with her especially with Karma

Soon everyone looked at me angrily

"What?"

"How could you?"Rio asked

I looked at Hanake for help but he seemed to look at me pleading for help aswell

"How could I what?"

"You hurt little Alyssa here"They said

"What?!"I glared at the grey haired

Karma was even giving me a disapproving look slinging an arm around Alyssa

"The hell?!Why are you siding her?!"I pointed at her angrily

She smirked and mouthed

'Take that B€¥%£'

"You little!"

They held me back"It was true!You did abuse her"

"Dont believe that little tattle tale!"I yelled they protected her

They started to warn me

"Get away"

I stared at them and at her

"Why?"