Just a fan

Chpater 18

(DONT PUT SONG YET)

1 year later
Your pov
I wrote down in my notebook on what's happened in the past year
• I hit 3 million subscribers and collaborated with the twins (nobody knows about Ethan and me)
•we told emma and James about our relationship
• time and Ethan have been dating for 2 years
•met ethans family and got along with them great time btw
"Babe I'm back" Ethan said walking into the house
•oh and I moved in with Ethan and Grayson
I mouth my journal away and went to say hi to ethan
"Hey ethan" I said hugging him
"Hey babe" he said then he pecked my lips
"I'm so bored I don't know what to do" I said sitting down "
"We could just sit around and watch movies all day" he said sitting next to me
"That's sounds great I guess" I rested my chin on the palm of my hand while my elbow rested on the table
"Well what do you want to do?" He said
"I don't know ethan" I said leaning my head back
"Well is here if you wanna talk about anything" he said getting up a dm walking to his room we don't share a room by the way we couldn't do that to Grayson
"Ok love you" I called out of him I got up and put my shoes on and grabbed my car keys
"Might as well shop" I drove to holly boulevard and parked, got out the car I started walking to a store nearby when a guy wakes up beside me already filming I already knew who it was the Hollywood fix
"Hey y/n how's it going"
"It's going great how's your day?" I said putting my sunglasses on
"Good Good do you know if your gonna collab with any you tubers right now"
"No actually I dm'd a bunch of people earlier asking to collab and just waiting for a response"
"Oh really can we know some of the people you want to collab with right now"
"I'd really like to collab with David dobrik"
"Really that's cool"
"Yeah"
"So you collab with the Dolan twins a lot is their a reason behind that"
"Of course their very nice people and their like my best friends"
"That's great"
"It really is"
"So you planning on doing anymore covers on your channel"
"Yeah"
"Collating with James for one"
"Mmm not sure he likes the type of music genre the song is" I said then laughing "yeah no I love James and I'm sure he's busy right now"
"Cool cool so are you seeing anyone right now?"
"I'm sorry but I need to go inside now have a nice day" I said know well I didn't have something important to do in that building I walked
I got a text I looked down at my phone seeing it was ethan

-Text conversation-

Ethan 💛 : babe where are u ?
Me : came to hb
Ethan 💛 : ok
Me : do want anything?
Ethan 💛 : no I'm good come safe love u
Me : luv u 2 x

-End of conversation-
I turned my phone off and walked into a store

-2 hours later after shopping-
(PUT SONG NOW)
It had started to pour water outside
I ran into my car carrying many shopping bags. I sat on the drivers seat and clicked on my moms phone number

-phone conversation-

"Hi sweetie" she said
"Hi mom" I said
"How are you"
"I'm doing ok how's dad"
"He's doing fine he's in his office working"
"That's great"
"How's ethan"
"He's Great"
"That's good hows his brother"
"He's doing good too"
"That's great honey I'm glad your all doing good"
"Mom"
"Yes y/n"
"I need advice with something"
"Talk to me"
"Well I love Ethan, so much,and I can't imagine my life without him, he's the best he's like the love of my life"
"I see"
"But I feel like were as in love as we did in the beginning"
"Honey I think you should talk to Ethan about what your feeling"
"Yes but I couldn't bear hurting him" I said having a tear run down my face
"It's worth to ask to see how he feels"
"I'll call you later mom love you"
"Love you too honey take care"

-end of conversation-

I wiped my tears and drove off back to the house. I can't do this, but I need to or else I'll just be lying to myself, but if I do I'll hurt Ethan and I can't loose him
I pulled into the driveway I left the bags in the car not stopping to get them. I opened the door with my key and walked into the living room.
I'm doing this and whatever happens happens.
"Ethan!"