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i need to.....

I need to improve
I feel small left alone.
All I do is moan.
I moan in the sadness I feel from within.

I have found love once more.
But the sin it lores.
It is trying to more me into falling.
I just finished crawling.

Crawling from the floor now standing.
I stand against not the world, but my own flesh.
This flesh is weak. I must improve.
I want to improve in all I can.

But man is it hard.
I feel this shard.
This shard deep within me.
Always reminding me the past.

But now I have have started to over come it.
And at last I feel a love I have been craving.

This love from a very gentle and delicate dove.

I know this dove was not sent from the God who watches me from above.

But I at least want to believe she was.
God has allowed her to know me and for her to fall for me and I for her.

I shall take my past and what I learned. And make sure this time things don't end with me alone.

I just need to improve. I must improve so she doesn't not leave.
I don't want her to leave for what I believe...... Is she deserves the best.