3/5/2019 [7:59 pm]
My ears ache. The painful sound of harsh words are spilling in and out of my head, whirling around and around. I'm afraid. They're fighting, again. I'm tired. I just want it to stop. The last three days have been absolute fucking torture. They're arguing about drugs. It's like a broken record that won't stop scratching over the same lines. First they're together, then they're not. 10 years of repeated abuse; abuse that comes in every possible form. I don't even want to be here anymore. Disappearing would fix everything that's hurting me, but I have months. In just 8 months, I'll be free. I won't have to endure it anymore. I'm trying to hold on. She's my escape but she's nowhere to be seen. Please come back. I need you.
