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-chapter 58 ➵ wrong!-

Yejin's POV

I woke up the next day with a heavy heart. By the time I opened my eyes, I knew that everything changed again. I should have listened to Lucas.

I slowly sat up on the bed, looking at space with eyes that holds no emotion. I glanced to my right and saw Haechan sleeping peacefully. If I have to repeat it a thousand times, he's beautiful.

My eyes traveled down his body, and that's when my eyes started to feel hot. My vision became blurry and my tears started to slide down my cheeks. I brought my knees to my chest and hugged it, burying my head on it.

After days and days of doing it, the song just made me realize that what we're doing was wrong all along. I covered my face with my palm and sobbed silently, not wanting to wake him up.

"Is this even right?" I asked myself and a clock I haven't noticed earlier said 'wrong!' repeatedly. It just struck 8:00 in the morning.

Wrong! Wrong! Wrong!

It kept on saying that as if it was answering my question again and again. It stopped when it was 8:01. I can't help myself but cry again. "This is wrong. This is so wrong. This is so messed up." I muttered, biting my nails.

Wrong!

I heard it in my ears again. I immediately stood up and changed into my dress. I tied my hair into a messy ponytail and wore my shoes. I glanced at Haechan's sleeping figure, still crying.

"I'm sorry, but this is just so wrong," I opened the door and stepped outside. I slowly closed it as I said, "I shouldn't have met you in the first place."

I rushed down the stairs and didn't mind the questions Seulgi and the others threw me. I exited the club and ran towards my apartment. When I reached the porch, I dropped on my knees and let it out.

"Oh my God, I hate myself," I bit my lip and tried to wipe the tears off, but it just kept coming. "I was not like this. I can't think anymore. I knew it was wrong but I chose to stay." I tried to open my apartment's knob, but it won't budge either.

I don't have enough money left. "If I don't go home in time, he's gonna chase me. No, no, no." I rubbed my eyes and started walking to our house. I was just staring at the ground, thinking all the things we did.

We fucked. I'm ashamed of myself.

This wasn't supposed to happen if I just listened to Lucas or Nanny. Maybe Renjun did like me. This relationship is all messed up. This was that flings with a guy. We're in lust. I'm so stupid to realize it so late.

I continued walking and stopped when I heard it.. I heard him. Instead of getting turned on or running to him to kiss him, for the first time, I was scared. "Yejin! Where are you going?"

I'm going to hell for this shit.

I didn't dare to glance at him. When I heard his footsteps getting closer, I made a run for it. "What--Yejin!" I ran and didn't stop. I'm thankful for my parents because our house was close and just a few seconds of running, I saw it.

"Guard, open the gate! And don't let that guy in, please!" Our guard immediately opened the man gate and I went in. He locked the gate and backed away from it. Haechan grabbed on the bars and looked at me, confused.

"Yejin, what--what's wrong?" He asked. I hugged myself. "Everything." I replied before turning my back on him. I climbed the flight of stairs while Haechan shouted and shouted. I pushed the wooden door open and paused, hearing him say those awful, ersatz words.

"Please, I love you!" I turned my head at him and gave him a pitied look. "You.. You don't," I shook my head. "I do!" He insisted. "No, you just don't. You don't want my heart!" I ran inside the house and went up to my room.

I slammed the door close and sat on the floor. "Why the hell am I crying over that guy? Ugh! This is so fucking wrong. I'm going crazy with our damned relationship. This is getting out of hand.. and it already is." I groaned, my tears still streaming down.

I heard a knock on the door. "Miss Yejin? Are you okay?" Nako asked. "I'm not, Nako." I can't lie and keep secrets anymore. I want to think.. and I don't want to see his face again.

I heard the door open and Nako was there. I looked up at her with teary eyes and she kneeled down to hug me. "It's going to be fine, Miss Yejin." She tapped my back. "I-I don't know, Nako. Everything we did was wrong.."

She pulled away and looked at me, ready to open up. "I.. I thought I really love him but, what do you expect? Flings are a trend these days and I can't avoid it. I was so naive and stupid to even realize before we did it. I.. I just hate myself, Nako."

She tapped my shoulder. "Miss Yejin, if you want to clear things with him, tell him. He may be open-minded about your relationship with him. You two should sort things out."

I shook my head. "I don't want to even come near him, Nako." She gave me a small smile. "If you keep on avoiding him, you'll have that burden in your heart. You don't want to leave without saying sorry, right?" I nodded.

"It's okay if you can't do it. You can try." She hugged me again before standing up.

"Is.. Is this normal?" My wall clock answered,

"WRONG! WRONG! WRONG!"

And it was right.

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