Something Special

We Need A Break...

* Minor P.I.P. references and spoilers *

Lottie's P.O.V

I woke up to a pounding in my head. I was... in the infirmary? No, I'm... I don't even know where I am!

The walls were lined with books and jars of candy. What kind of dream land is this? Books and candy? Did I die and go to heaven?I thought I only passed out!

" Guys she waking up!" is that Raph? I looked over and sure enough I found him. He threw down a books full of scripted lines for Les Misérables. Binah slid out of her arm chair under a blanket with a book I couldn't read the name of. Saskia and Anastacia were no where to be found.

" Are you okay?" Binah asked gently. I nodded, my head pounded. She hissed and handed me an ice pack from a mini fridge/freezer next to the bed.

" Yeah, where am I?" I asked while clutching the ice pack to my forehead. Binah chortled.

" We're in my Lola and I's room! I was helping in the infirmary and I saw you get carried in, Raph asked if we could take you to my room since you lost the key to yours." 

Lost the key to my room, that was the excuse he made? He looked at me with sorry eyes, I only nodded stiffly, still aware that my head could exploded at any minute. My gaze shifted to the script for Les Misérables, musical. A musical... I thought back to a familiar box, one that was hidden under a bed.

Jamie's theater box.

Was that musical in his secret box? The one where he expressed his love for music? My heart felt heavy in my chest. 

" Where's Jamie and Ellie?" I already knew the answer. They were in Maradova, Jamie pursuing his morning training, Ellie being groomed to be a princess. I could see the horrors materialize in my head. 

Jamie bending and breaking under the pressure of training. Ellie throwing away her hair dye.

Jamie's fingers studying how to handle weapons rather than piano keys. Ellie being measured for an Aston Court uniform.

Jamie getting poked in his shoulder as a reminder of the very trauma that he runs from. Ellie's hair getting cut of their split ends, only to grow out to the natural dark brown I knew she hid under shields of black. 

They'd fall apart day by day. Soon enough I'll be back in Cornwall, back with my old classmates. Crumbling like them, but I would no longer have them to comfort me and vise versa.

They'd question me, and I'd ignore them. I'd go back to living in the ghost of Mother's old bakery, Beady surely pestering me and making jokes about why I would be expelled. Then she'd go running off, scrounging my poor excuse of a Father's gambling money out of his pockets. 

I never want to see him again. 

I shuddered and curled into a ball in the candy stripped bed sheets. A undeniable anger flooded through, I felt the need to punch something- anything at that. Is this how Ellie felt when she was bashing the van Saskia tried to use to kidnap me?

I felt Binah wrap her arms around me in a comforting hug. I didn't dare sink into it, I wouldn't let myself possibly hurt Binah just because I felt angry. As if she could read my mind, Binah let go of me and let me get off Lola's bed. 

" I'm gonna go up to my room real quick, I just remembered I forgot something in there when I was packing." they nodded in understanding. 

It was a complete lie. 

Instead I went up to Jamie's room. I wanted to see if he left yet. 

I went up there, some of the Ivy boys giving me weird looks, to which I ignored. I opened the door, saw that his stuff was gone. That must've been why I didn't need a key to open the door. 

The clicked behind me and I sat down on was used to be his bed. 

I stared at the bare walls. I remember when we were in here. My heart ached at the memory. I stood up off the bed and reached under it, hoping that maybe the box would be there. But it wasn't. I don't understand why I even thought it was going to be there when I saw his stuff wasn't there. I got up slowly and looked around. 

I looked through to drawers in the desk, found nothing. Looked under the mattress, and found nothing. There was no vandalism, no trace of him left. I wouldn't expect Jamie to vandalize anyway. 

I eventually found myself staring down the closet doors. I pushed them open, maybe hoping to find a hoodie of his? I just needed something. I stared at the blank wall of the closet. 

I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear, to feel the earring wasn't in. Did it fall out? I looked down, trying to to if it fell, but found something else. 

Jamie's guitar, and it's case. But, it wasn't in it's case. I knelt down and gently set the guitar aside. I opened the case, and stared down at the mountain of papers inside. 

The papers had scrapped song lyrics, musics staffs with different notes, keys, time signatures, dynamics, and articulations written in. 

Music sheets. He had a guitar case full of music. And he left it behind with the guitar. Different sheets were labeled whether or not they were for the piano or the guitar. I looked through his notes and ideas all scrawled out on paper. I must have been looking through for hours, because outside the sky had gone into a dark sunset. But in the very bottom of the case, I found a brochure along with a couple a of letters. One of them was signed by Professor.

To Apollon School of Preforming Arts,

It has come to my attention that your staff has taken interest in one of Rosewood Hall's most gifted students. I Professor Adina Devine am writing this letter of recommendation for Jamie Volk. He has been recognized by the head of the theater department Professor Kuma. He has musical talents and a strong passion for the preforming arts...

I couldn't continue reading. Jamie was going to go to another school? 

I turned my head to see the door opening, with Jamie walking through. 

He looked at me, his eyes wide and cold, but slowly warming. He was gaping like a fish at the sight of me. He didn't run over to hug me, he only watched me in silence, surrounded by his music. 

" We need a break... a break from Rosewood Hall, maybe a month or so should to the trick. You can Apollon, I can go to Cornwall for a bit, we all need to figure things out. We talked to Headmaster Croak, turns out everything was a set up. I'm sorry for looking through your stuff. I-" I was cut off when I looked up from the floor to Jamie hugging me. I hugged him back. 

" I was going to tell you about Apollon, but I was going to wait until the end of the year... and you're right. We need a break from Rosewood for at least a month." he said softly next to my ear. 

" Are you okay?" he asked. And with that, I poured my heart out to him, everything. Me passing out, my fear of what would happen if we all left Rosewood for good, even details about my Father. Soon I was sobbing. But he listened and he held me.

" We'll make it through all this..." he said.

Soooo how y'all doin'? Can I just say the songs Billie Eilish is coming out with are actually really emotion for me man like DANG MY HEART IS RIPPING INTO PIECES OVER HERE! Sorry for the late update, school happened, love y'all! Also expect an acoustic version of a song to be coming up soon! Also Apollon isn't a real school ( at least I don't think ) I just came up with it and I knew Apollo is the Greek god of music so I just added an 'n' to the end and bam!