strings apart [jimin ff]

flinch

»it's an odd feeling, unknown and peculiar, unable to point my finger, I flinch at the pain..«

Jimin's POV

I ran away...

Filled with cowardice and frustration, I left the drink at her door, walking away with one thing on my mind..

Fear

I'm not sure if y/n is really the y/n I knew, the name does not qualify and jumping to conclusions wouldn't help either, but I can't ignore this sore feeling that entered my heart, it felt wrong but at the same time, I want to care, I came back to the members, the others are now awake and on their phones, V is still reading, Suga was still sleepy but held through because it seems like there is one more thing we need to do before we head home,

We were recording for the last time in a room wide enough for most of staff to get inside, a small meeting with the director and the Line staff, of course, y/n was there, she was sitting down near us, I smiled at the sight of her smiling and innocently listening to the meeting, even if it was boring..but with respect and formality, we listened carefully and agreed with some terms,

Crossed arms, I leaned back in my chair and secretly glanced at y/n, she was talking to Hobi hyung, she was laughing...there it is again, my chest tightening..I looked away once y/n could look at me, feeling her gaze, I could only wish she didn't see me, the meeting finished sooner than we thought, we bowed and thanked the Line company for giving us this opportunity, good thing we will come back here tomorrow..I haven't accepted the fact that I saw y/n again, even if it might not be her..I want to just look at her in every single moment..

The staff gathered our stuff and started cleaning up the set, me and the others are about to leave until y/n called us, my heart pounded, she looked at me and blushed as I look at her, I smiled, but then she went over to Hobi hyung,

"Thank you for the drink you left by the door, Hobi." She smiled brightly at Hoseok,

My heart sank..

Before he could reason out, I spoke up and laugh,

"That's so nice, y/n-ssi, we'll see you again tomorrow, we're sorry we have to leave."

Grabbing Hoseok as the others were already outside or by the door looking at us, I went out with hyung and waved goodbye at y/n with a smile..why...

Why did she thought it was Hobi...

Finally arriving at the entrance of Line company, I stopped grabbing Hoseok as he actually followed me silently as I grab him, looking down with a frown, I tried to ease the tightening pain in my chest as I walk towards the van and sit down alone in the back, I sighed and just stare at the window,

"Is something wrong, Jimin?" Namjoon asked me, noticing my sudden mood, it was hard to speak up, there was a lump on my throat as I hold back the pain,

"I-i'm fine.." Soar and breaking my voice, I only made the pain hurt me more than I could, because of this I felt my eyes water..not now..

"You've been weird lately, hyung." Jungkook worriedly say as they look at me, I tried to smile and face them telling them not to worry, they just worried more,

"We'll talk later, Jimin." Jin hyung proclaimed after looking at the others then at me and finally sitting properly along with the others, my heart broke even more as I see them like this for me..

I can't take this much already...

My eyes let out those tears and my throat cough out the lump and pain it has been conjuring up, the others didn't look back, they knew...

Why did y/n thought it was Hobi..

My mind was filled of regret the whole trip back home..I just walked out of the van when we arrived, going straight to my room and laying on my bed, hugging my pillow,

"Why am I like this again..what is with you, y/n to make me like this again...why did you have to leave and suddenly show up..but that wasn't you, she wasn't you..I don't know anymore..."

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I'm sorry that this was short, I tried my best to give the emotion and set the mood for it, this is very raw and I will leave it as is, I may be updating very seldom and I'm truly sorry, I'm happy for the support btw 😍💞💕💜 but that doesn't mean I shouldn't update often, I will do my best next time, and until then, I'll be off for now and prepare the next story flow of the upcoming chapters, see you on the next, guys, bye-byu ♥