Fix him (Levi x Erwin)

Why Would He

I walked in on Levi cutting him self. I had to restrain him to make him stop. I want to know why would he do that. He wouldn't explain so I bandaged up his cuts and sat in the floor next to him. I held him in my arms. He fought back at first but then he stopped and started holding on to me. I want to help him. I want him to see that I love him. This isn't the time for that though. He fell asleep in my arms. I know he needs it. He stayed up all night last night comforting me so now I will do the same for him. Hours pass. Hanji walks in to wake up Levi. She sees me hold him. I motion for her to be quiet. she quickly and quietly walk over and crouched beside us. "Did he fall asleep?" She whispered. "Yeah." "Why is he in your arms?" "Ask Levi when he wakes up." "It's time for him to wake up. We have to get breakfast." "Ok you get Mike and head down there. I will be in with Levi shortly." She nods and leaves shutting the door. "Levi it's time to wake up." I say loud but gently. I move a little bit which shakes him some. Levi opens his eyes and sees that he fell asleep on me. He jumps up and starts turning red. "Hanji and Mike will meet us in the mess hall." Levi nods and goes into his closet to change. We start to walk. "What did you tell Hanji when she came to wake me up?" "I told her to ask you. I promised you I wouldn't tell anyone and I still haven't." Levi looks surprised at that. We go in get food and sit down. Mike and Hanji have an evil smile on their faces. "Mind telling us what happened?" Mike says with an evil grin. "I had a bad dream and Erwin comforted me." Levi said turning red. "Why couldn't you tell me that Erwin?" Hanji asks. I am about to respond when Levi cuts me off. "Because its embarrassing." He says looking down. We all chuckle slightly even Levi. "Well we have to go train with our teams." Hanji and Mike got up and left. "I have business to attend to." I say leaving. I walk out of the barracks and around the side until I find Levi's window. I look down to ground and look for the knife. "Looking for this?" I look up to see Levi standing above me holding the knife. I get off my hands and knees. "Yes I was. Can I have it now?" "No." "Why?" "It doesn't belong to you." "I'm not just going to let you have a knife. I should have taken it a long time ago. Then this wouldn't have happened." "Don't lie to yourself! Yes it would and you know it!" "Why are you so stubborn?! Give it here I'm not going to tell this continue!" Levi just walked off with his knife in hand. I ran after him grabbed the hand without the knife in it. "Don't walk away from this!" "I'm not walking away from this I'm walking away from you. Now let go!" "No! Not until you let me help you!" "You wouldn't understand!" "Than help me understand!" Levi shakes his hand free and throws the knife. It lands right in front of me. "You want the knife have the knife! However never ask for me to help you understand again! You don't know what you're saying!" After that he left. I was just standing there in shook. I watch him leave wanting him to stay. I want to help him. I go back to my room and put my head down. I must have fallen asleep it's dark now. I look to the floor and see Levi laying there dead! Just then I wake up. It must have been a nightmare. It is dark out. I don't care I need to make sure Levi is ok. I get up and run to Levi's room. I open the door and my heart breaks. "Levi! Levi stop! Again with this?!" I run to Levi who is again cutting himself. I restrain him again. Levi fought back this time. He shoved me off of him. I grab him bandage his wounds and take his blade again. "Why?! WHY WONT YOU LET ME DIE!!" "BECAUSE IF YOU DIED LEVI THEN THE MAN I LOVE IS GONE FOREVER!! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO LET YOU DIE!!" I say and cover my mouth. I didn't mean to say that. "You love me?" Levi says but I can't answer. I turn and run out of the room. I run straight to mine and shut the door. I turn bright red. I put my head down on the desk. I know I shouldn't leave him alone right now but I can't handle seeing him. I know he doesn't like me in that way. I hear a knock on the door. "Who is it?" "It's Levi. We need to talk." "Come in." I feel the anxiety over take me. My heart is going to beat out of my chest. He comes in shutting the door behind him. He walks over to where I am sitting. Before I get the chance to say anything Levi has his lips on mine.