Fix him (Levi x Erwin)

Are You Ok

Levi's POV

I woke up. It was still dark out. I look next to me to see Erwin asleep. I look down to see we are both fully clothed. What happened? Why is the mattress wet? Why is Erwin face red? What happened?! "Erwin." I say gently shaking him. He opens his eyes slowly. "Oh hey Levi. You're awake now." "What happened?" "Well you went missing and we search for you but mike sent me back to my room to calm down. I fell asleep then when I woke up I asked them if they had found you and they said yes so I went to your room but you were asleep on the floor so I carried you to you bed. Then when I tried to leave you grabbed me and wouldn't let go so I laid down next to you." "Oh ok. Wait why was the bed wet?" "Oh I.....I was kind of......well .... I was....c-crying." I jump to him and wrap my arms around him. "Why?" "I-I don't want to talk about it." Did something happen? Why would he be crying? Why won't he tell me? Oh wait I know why. It's about me. "I did something wrong didn't I?" "It has nothing to do with you. Well the real you anyway." "Real me? What dose that mean?" "LOOK I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!" He yelled then put his hands over his mouth and started crying. He rested his head on my lap. "I'm so sorry I yelled at you! It was just really scary and I don't want to go through that again." He managed to sob out. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to push you to the point of yelling. You don't have to go through it until you're ready." When I say this he looks up and locks eyes with me. "Levi, I love you." This time something is off. He stopped crying but he still has tears on his face. He sounds so serious. "I know Erwin. I love you too." I say then I check the time. "You need to leave right now!" "Why?" "Hanji will be here in like five minutes." He runs grabs his things and leaves. I wonder what happened that was so scary. I hate that he can't just stay next to me forever. I wonder what the part where he got so serious was about. Mike comes in to wake me up. "Hey Levi, Hanji has a hangover so I'm getting you up today." "Ok" I get up go in my closet and change. "So did you and Erwin talk last night." "Not really Why?" "He wanted to know where he kept disappearing to. Actually we all do." "I don't disappear." "I searched for three hours yesterday looking for you. You were no where to be seen." "Oh that. I had to go to a meeting in the interior with the leaders of the military Police Brigade and garrison regiment." "Why did Erwin not go?" "Well the meeting was about him. Some people were questioning his leader because of what happened when we captured Annie." "Oh he's probably in trouble." "Yep a whole lot of it but then again he knew he would get in trouble when he did it." I know that Mike knows that I'm not telling him the whole truth. Yesterday I was at a meeting but the times before that I didn't have an excuse for. However Mike never pushed. He never had a reason to. He could normally figure out the truth quickly. Except for he still hasn't figured out that I used to cut myself. I say 'used to' like I don't do it anymore but I do. I promised Erwin I would stop but I didn't. We go to breakfast and it is always the same. Hanji talking about titans. Mike joking about her. Erwin Laughing. And me look down at the food I'm not going to eat, silent, not laughing, and uncaring about the world around me. Mike and Hanji leave to do training. I walk out and start going down the hall. Erwin grass my hand, spins me around, and puts a piece of bread in my mouth. "Eat I don't want you dying." He says then he starts to walk off. I grab his hand, spin him around, and hug him. "Levi? Are you ok?" "Yeah I'm fine why?" "You're hugging me tight and it kind of hurts." "Oh sorry I didn't mean to hurt you." I say but I don't let go I don't even loosen my grip. "Do you want to talk about it?" He was worryingly. "No besides I have somewhere else to be." I start walking away then he grabs my hand again. "Look I know you don't like talking about how you feel but you can't just leave me in the dark. I want to help you. You don't have to go through.." "Shut up!" I say cutting him off. "I understand you want to help however you can't help with this." I walk away from him. I go to my room and stay there for around half an hour. I don't want him knowing where I 'disappear' to. I'm not doing anything wrong I just don't want him to worry. I leave my room and head to the secret room Annie is held in. This is what I do. I stand here for hours with my weapons drawn. If she comes out I will be the first thing she sees. I will always be the first to fight her. She will pay for what she did! "So this is where you go." I turn and I see, with shock the person I didn't want to know where I go, "Erwin?!"