Poetry - Late Night Thoughts.

free.

I feel like a monster..

Like the one that lives under your bed,
the one that lives inside your head -
choosing all the words that you have said.

I feel like I have lost myself,
like I am not who I used to be.
I'm just a stranded soul, that is lost and gone,
floating amongst the sea.

I feel as if I'm scared.
Like there is something dangerous that I just can't see.
Like sadness deep inside my soul, turning into danger
walking free.

I feel as if there is no comfort,
like a blanket to hold you at night.
Like having that final escape from imprisonment,
or running safely from a fight.

I feel as if everyone has left,
like they're better off alone.
The words that you said still haunt my dreams,
and hits too close to home.

I feel as if it might get better,
like I shouldn't lose all hope.
To forgive myself might be hard,
but it's just another knot in the rope.

Regret is such an awful thing,
that may take years to pass.
You fall apart, and break your own heart,
as it shatters like broken glass.

Pain can only last so long,
before the calming of the storm.
But happiness can come along, in
many shapes or forms.

Giving up is an option,
but it is not the right one for me.
I may be lost, I may be broken,

but I will be set free.