SECRET CHILD OF MIN YOONGI (SLOW UPDATES)

48- WHY YOONGI?

Trigger warning ⚠️

11th January 2019

Yoongi's pov

It's been 4 day since I said what I said to y/n

She forgave me and said she knew I was stressed over the whole leaked picture thing, but I still feel beyond bad and guilty and I regret all of it

As for the leaked pictures thing, we said the only thing we could say, the pictures were taken without our knowledge or consent and we will take legal action over the person that leaked them

We're all pretty sure it was an friend of Jason's who leaked them, I mean he can't, he's in prison

Time skip

Everyone's asleep, so I was doing the same thing I'd done for the past few nights

In the bathroom, door locked, sat on the closed toilet lid, sleeves rolled up, razor blade in hand, cutting

I never told y/n this, but before we met, I was in a really bad place, and I used to cut, I never ever cut deep enough for it to leave scars, but this time, I didn't care, when I met y/n, every thing seemed to look up, I know it sounds so cliché, but it's the truth, I stopped cutting and began to look after myself properly, I never told her, because I didn't want her to think badly of me, when she told me about Lauren, it stopped me from worrying so much, but I could never bring myself to tell her

I did a few cuts before a knock on the bathroom door, followed by y/n's voice
"Yoongi, are you in there?"

Shit! I thought she was asleep!

"Uh.... y-yeah"

"Are you okay? You're taking a really long time"

"I'm fine. I'm just... procrastinating"

"Procrastinating taking a shit? I don't think I've ever heard a more 'Yoongi' sentence" she chuckled a bit

"Are you sure you're okay though?" She finished

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just go back to bed, I'll be there in a minute"

"Okay, can you be as quick as you can though? I miss your cuddles" you could hear the pout in her voice and it made my heart hurt

"Yeah, I won't be long"

"You better not be"

I heard her footsteps get further away from the bathroom door and I stood up to grab a bandage from the cupboard

I turned on the tap and ran my wrist under the tap to clean the cuts, I flinched away when the water hit my broken skin

Once I had cleaned all the blood off of my wrist I wrapped the bandage around it, tightly to stop any more bleeding, pulled my sleeves down and I went back to the bedroom

I slid into bed behind y/n and put my arms around her, protectively, holding her hands in mine

I kissed her temple
"I love you, y/n"

"I love you too" she mumbled back

"And... I'm sorry"

"You don't have to be sorry, Yoongi. You... you were just stressed"

I sighed

No matter how many times she told me not to be, I can't help but feel guilty

2 days later
13th January 2019

Y/n was feeding Demi and the rest of us (minus Jungkook) we're watching something on the tv

It was still early so ChaeYoung was still asleep, I expect her to wake up any minute now though

The front door of the dorms opened

We all knew who it was

Jungkook came walking into the dorms, head down, but we could still see the big smile on his face

We all know why he stayed at Lauren's last night and the room flooded with questions, most of which Jungkook ignored

"Is our little maknae no longer a baby?"

"Baby boy Jungkookie is now a man!!"

"How was it?"

"How's Lauren?!" Y/n asked one the room had gone, some what, quiet

Y/n's was also the only one answered by Jungkook
"She's fine and happy, you know, she's going to see her family"

"Were you with her right up until her parents came to pick her up?"

"Yeah, her parents even gave me a lift back here"

Y/n just nodded, pulled her tank top back up and began to burp Demi

"Hey, Jungkook, you promised details If I gave you those condoms" Namjoon pointed at Jungkook

"Well, I'm not giving you any details, so if you want, you can go and the used condom from Lauren's bedroom bin, but I warn you, it's full of cum" he finally stopped standing around and went into his bedroom

"I can't believe Jungkook lost his virginity before I did"  Jin turned into ShookJin

"I lost my virginity before all of you did... so..." I leaned back all smug and saw y/n furrow her eyebrows at me in confusion

"You know it was to you, y/n" I reassured her as I leaned up and used the burping towel dangling over y/n's shoulder and under Demi to wipe the little bit of spit-up Demi just did

Time skip

Y/n's pov

Everyone is cramped into the kitchen cleaning up the mess from dinner

Since Jin, literally, made us a three course meal, there was a lot of dishes that needed to be cleaned and it would be easier

Chae Young was helping Jungkook and Taehyung wile down the kitchen counters and by 'helping' I mean 'doing her best but Jungkook and Taehyung had to keep going over little bits her and there that she had missed'

Jin and Yoongi were washing the dishes

Me and Jimin were drying the dishes once they were clean

And Namjoon and Hoseok we're putting the clean dishes away

Everything was going great and our system worked

That was until we heard Yoongi break the quietness of the room, causing everyone to look over at him and Jin

"Jin hyung, I don't need to have my sleeves rolled up, it's fine"

"Yoongi, it would be so much easier if you just rolled your sle-" Jin went to roll up Yoongi's sleeves for him, and Yoongi cut him off by saying
"Hyung, don-" but it was too late

Jin had already pulled up his left sleeve, a long with, what looked like, a bandage

It revealed a whole bunch of deep cuts

The whole room fell silent

You could hear a pin drop

My eyes were fixated on my fiancé's bloodied arm

Why didn't he tell me any of this?

I can usually tell when he isn't doing so great, mentally

Why not this time?

"Yoongi" Jin said softly

"Just leave me alone!" Yoong threw the plate that was in his other hand back into the sink and walked out of the room

All of us just stood around, not knowing what to do

Jimin made the first move, he put the bowl and towel in his hands down and followed Yoongi

I stayed frozen

I didn't know what to do