Out of the Woods

FREYA LOUVIEN

It's been 3 months. I still couldn't move on. That accident is still fresh to me like it was done yesterday. I know my kuya has done a lot to make me feel better, but I just couldn't get any better. Making me feel better will not erase the fact that I'm blind now.

Darkness. Darkness is all I could see. I'm scared...

I couldn't see it but I feel tears falling down my cheeks. This again, I've been crying since I lost my vision. And it feels like I've lost my life too... The whole of it.

"Shh... Freya, it's gonna be okay." Kuya caressed my back.

Damn... It made my crying worse! I'm sobbing like a child now.

"What did I do wrong?!" I shouted.

I felt kuya back off a little so I stretched my arm so I could feel him again. I hate this! I hugged him tight and wish that he'll never go away again.

"It's not your fault Freya," he softly said. "It's not anyone's fault."

"Where are we?" I asked.

"In the living room," I nodded as he answers my question.

I've memorized our house so I could get out here whenever I want, even though I couldn't see it. I stretched my arms again pushing kuya off me. I groped his face and felt that he's crying too, but he immediately wipe off his tears when I felt it.

"I-I want water," I said, trembling.

I don't know if I'm doing this right but I want to get out now. I need to find some people. When I felt him stand up and walk farther from me, I rushed through the door. I immediately open it and run away. My heart is beating so loud that my chest is starting to hurt.

I stretch my arm again to feel what's happening around me, but I couldn't feel anything. I'm just running and running until I bump into something. It's a tree, so I started walking towards that tree I held in. And I touch many more trees! I hope I'm getting somewhere.

I slowed down as I feel bleeding in my feet because of some sharp things. I slowly sit and grope for the area where the bleeding is. I swallowed very hard when I feel how prickly it is. I felt some small but sharp branches beside my wound, so I hold it and slowly pushed it.

Huh? I heard noises around me. It's like someone is heading towards me. I turn my head around even though I couldn't see anything. As I turn, I move my arms around and stopped the moment I held something.

It was soft like a cloud, I pinch it and waited for how it will react, it didn't. I cough and cough because of some smoke around. Wait, there's no smoke here! I ran and ran when I felt strange things that surrounds me. It's... It's not a good feeling. How I wish I could turn back time!

"Ahhh!" I shouted as I bump into something again.

This time, it held me. It wrapped its arms around me so tight, I couldn't breath. I tried to move, I tried to get violent and push it as hard as I could... But I can't. I smell something nauseous, then the last thing I know. I fell asleep.

"Freya," I heard kuya's voice.

I sitted as fast as I could and strecthed my arm to reach him. I hugged him tightly and I started crying again.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry," I repeated as I cry.

"Freya..." he whispered through my ears.

But this time, it's another man's voice. I was shocked, I pushed him real hard. I heard something breaking from his behind because of that pushed.

"You little shit!" he cursed, back to kuya's voice.

I decided to stand up and run again till I lost him. I got tired of running. I bump to one person again, and I hugged the person tight. I felt that she was a girl because of the breast, I feel so safe now. Slowly, I closed my eyes and forced myself to rest.