Hate and Love ( Zarry AU)

Part 5

"Harry, say something please!"

Louis was in love with me. Holy fuck!! That bomb was completely dropped out of the blue. How could I not have noticed that? I'm mean I was usually not oblivious to things. But this had me shook. I've never really thought about being with Louis romantically. He was fit looking but I just couldn't imagine being with him. What the hell was I supposed to do now? He was extremely important to me and if I turned him down now that's definitely gonna mess things up a lot. I didn't wanna loose him! Besides my crush on Zayn, and wish he'd wanna be with me, would never turn into reality, I just never thought about anyone else though. Maybe I should just try it out. Maybe I would develop feelings for Louis.

"Lou, I don't exactly know what to say right now."

Now it definitely made sense why he wanted to pay for me earlier because in his eyes it was kind of a date.

"It's just I had no clue that you like me like that", I added but saw Louis expression turning sad, which made me wanna take it back.

"I get it Harry. That you need time to think about what I said. I'm sorry I don't wanna push you to tell me right away. Maybe we can talk about it tomorrow or in 2 days?"

"Thanks for understanding Lou."

After that, the atmosphere between us was as awkward as it could be. Louis still needed to take me to his place because my bicycle was there.

And the car ride was just full of tension and uncomfortableness. Honestly, I just wanted to get out if there. To fill the silence, Louis turned on the radio, which didn't help because cheesy love songs were playing, which is why he turned it off again.

After the most 15 awkward minutes of my life, we finally arrived at his place.

I felt dumb because now I didn't even know how to say a proper goodbye to him. Usually we always hugged and that was totally okay with me, but now? Now I'd know that these hugs probably had a different meaning to him.

"I had a really good time today Louis...see ya at school", was all I said before I waved him goodbye and got on my bike. I didn't lie. I had a really good time at least until he told me he loved me.

What was I supposed to do know?

Maybe I could call Niall. He might be able to help.

At home I called Niall right away.

"Hey Harry what's up? How was your date?"

Date. That wasn't a date. To me at least it wasn't.

"So you knew?", was all I defined.

"Yes. Harry I'm sorry I thought you did too. I mean he was pretty obvious. Always tried to help you whenever, brought you your favorite snacks to school, defended you if someone called you names. I'm sorry I can't think of a specific scenario. All I know is he would literally do anything for you. I really thought you noticed that. Especially the way he looks at you."

"Niall I feel so bad. I never noticed anything. I was just so focused on...", I had to stop myself from saying Zayn now because if I did, he would know about my crush on him. Even worse he would be mad because I have a crush on Zayn who is a total asshole towards me all the time and not one on Louis who is the nicest person I know.

"Focused on what Harry?"

"Nothing forget it. Just please help me! What should I do now?"

"Do you think he is attractive?", Niall started asking questions.

"Yeah."

"Do you like his personality?"

"Of course I do!"

"Do you want to be with him even though you might not be in love with him right now?"

"Ehh I I yes", I stuttered not exactly sure if that was the right answer.

"Then I'll guess you should give it a go."

"Thanks Niall for your advice. I'll decide later and give Louis my answer tomorrow."

"No problem Haz!"

"See ya tomorrow!", and I ended the call.

And now there I was lying on my bed staring at the ceiling and wondering why my life had gotten so complicated within a few hours. When I heard a bed shaking and moaning.

"Oh Zayn please right there!"

Why did my room have to be next to Zayn's? This was torture. And seriously they just shagged yesterday. And was Zayn really that shameless? Yaser and my mom were both downstairs.

And this was the moment I decided I'm gonna try things with Louis. Zayn is never gonna like me and Louis loves me and I like Louis. That's a start right!?

Zayn's POV

The entire day I tried to avoid Harry as much as I could. And I succeeded. He was still on my mind though and that was bothering me a lot. Which is why I texted Perrie to see if she had time. And I didn't really care that Anne and my dad were downstairs. I just wanted to not think about anything for a moment. But again I came while thinking of Harry.