Devils journal |k•th

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Next Morning

I woke up from the sound of my alarm ringing.
I lazily sat up and dragged myself out of bed.
I went inside the bathroom and did my morning routine, after that I went downstairs and made my way to the kitchen.

Strange...Taehyung is still not here.
Maybe still looking for those souls?

I shrugged off the thoughts and made breakfast; omelette, bacons, definitely rice and a cup of coffee.
pErfect uwu.

I set up the table just for me, cuz i'm a lonely lil boi.

"Nice breakfast you got there."

I got startled and quickly looked up and saw Taehyung infront of me, his elbows resting on top of the table and his head was resting onto his palm.

"When did you got here?!"

"Just now." He gave me a smile.

"Tsk, Have you collected any souls?" I questioned raising my eyebrows at him.

He shook his head,"Sadly, no. I haven't collected any this week." He frowned.
"Did you answer your ex yet?" He asked.

I felt taken aback,"N-no, I haven't.."I stuttered.

"Good. Cuz I know you're not ready yet."

I just nodded.
I sat down and started eating my meal.
Taehyung was just watching me.
Can this guy not get any creepier?

"Can you please stop staring?"

"sorry hun, you're just too beautiful to resist staring at." He gave me a smirk.

I just rolled my eyes and continued eating.

Once i've finished eating, I washed the dishes and went upstairs to my bedroom; ignoring Taehyung's piercing glance.

I reached my bedroom and sat on my bed.

I heard a sound coming from my phone and picked it up.

Hoseok: Morning, my hope!💕

I felt my heart aching and I let myself fall onto the bed.

Hoseok: Hey, y/n pls let's fix this.

This is making me frustrated.
I don't wanna be the one who's immature now.
Again, I sat up from my bed.

A sigh came out of my lips.

I closed my eyes and thought for a while.

"Daydreaming?"

I opened one of my eyes and saw Taehyung's face really close from mine.
I felt cold air blowing.

Everytime he comes close, cold air blows.

I opened my other eye and stare at him for awhile.

I unconsciously smiled.

He smiled back.

I felt taken aback and felt my cheeks heating up, I looked down; avoiding eye contact.

"Who you texting babe?" He floats his way beside me, he sat down on my bed, well he was floating a bit.

"Stop with the nicknames...its annoying." I scolded him.

He just chuckled,"Why not? It's cute." He smiled.

I rolled my eyes,"whatever." I mumbled.

"Can you please leave me alone to think?" I politely asked him.

"Your finally going to answer your ex? What's his name anyway?" He questioned.

"I thought you could read minds."

"When it comes to you, I don't... I respect you too much." He mumbled the last part but I ignored it.

"Well, his name is Hoseok. So you just read my mind on the 'ex' part?" I questioned, I cocked an eyebrow.

His lips formed into a line and he nodded.

uwu, could he stop pls?

SHUHS, U HUMAN MIND.

It was silent for a bit, until I awkwardly gestured him to leave, "Oh right." He awkwardly responds and quickly went through the door.

Why is this weird atmosphere there when the both of us talk?
Ugh, it's just so annoying.
I just want my normal life back!

I shook my head and turned my attention back to Hoseok.

HmM...Well I certainly don't feel anything about Hoseok.
Well I do... its just a 'friend' feeling, and I don't see myself loving Hoseok in that way anymore.
Something change..

Hoseok: Y/n are you there?

I sighed once I finished reading his message.

I'm really sorry Hoseok, a sorry can't fix this broken heart of yours, yet.
So I won't even say sorry.
It will have no use anyway.

I can't do this to him.

I'll be living with guilt if I did.

I need a break.

I putted my phone on airplane mode and shut it off.
I stood up from my bed and threw my phone somewhere in the bedsheet of my bed.

I ignored Hoseok, once again.
I'm really immature for doing this.
But I really need a break.

I pulled out something to wear, just a simple shirt and jeans will do.

I changed my clothes and went downstairs.

I saw Taehyung sitting or floating¿ on the couch and in his hands was his journal.

I ignored him and made my way to the front door.

"Where you going?" He stopped me from my actions.

"Leave me alone for awhile." That's the only words that I somehow blurted, and the whole time my back was facing him.

I heard him sigh.

I couldn't care less if he will say something next,
I just dashed out of the house.

I need this time for myself.
I'll face Hoseok when i'm truly ready.
I'll trust in Taehyung's advice.
I could've asked for his help, but...I want to face this myself.
I need to trust myself too.

a/n: poor ray of sunshine 😣