Dark Web Date | YOONMIN

XIX - Secret visits

~Pov Yoongi~

That night I had to sleep at my parent's house. 

I expected Jimin's friends not being happy with me visiting Jimin but what that guy told me. I knew Jimin is someone to me. But they are his friends, so of course he told them about me and told them how he feels about me. 

So finding out he doesn't care about me, especially in this situation and this way, I felt like shit. 

Of course I wasn't gonna stop visiting, I just had to go while his friends were at school. But I needed to hear him say he loves me. Because he haven't said that, never ever. And I needed to hear it so badly. 

"Honey, come at least eat something. Few bites." mom begged me the whole evening. I refused to eat though. 

"I don't feel like eating.." I mumbled. 

"Until now your life was about delivering drugs, killing people and all that stuff. How come now that you just got someone to the hospital, you're all depressed?" she sighed and rubbed my back. 

"Mom..h-he was someone I care about a lot. I'll admit it, we had sex a few times and I was waiting for him to be comfortable enough to get into a somewhat stable relationship." I explained sobbing. 

"You said he is alive, what do you mean by 'he was'?" she asked. 

"It's complicated." I mumbled. 

"I might sound terrible but it's nice to see you cry for once. It shows you are a human with feelings." she hugged me. 

...

The following day I headed to the hospital after school started. I got roses on the way. I knew getting Jimin a bunch of pink roses would bust me but as long as I won't meet his friends in there, it will be okay. 

I asked about Jimin at the reception to make sure we would be alone. Only then I actually went to his room. 

"Hey...so I'm here." I said approaching his bed. 

"Thought I'd make your day a bit. Now, after the accident your lips and cheeks aren't that nice pink color but the pink roses will hopefully help with that." I put the roses into a vase by his bed. 

"I hope you know I didn't mean to put you in danger. You might have been the only person who got hurt in the accident but I know for sure you were the only one who did not deserve it." I sat down. 

"Fewer people contacted me about their orders, you know, the dark web ones. And I'm considering quitting both dark web and tattooing gangsters. To be able to work at my family's coffee shop and come here to see you when your friends can't." I smiled a little and gently took his hand. 

"It would be a major change in my life but..in all those years doing bad stuff, it never made me happy, and you, in the few weeks we've known each other, you made me happy just by smiling or giggling." I whispered and placed a kiss on his hand.