A Butterfly's Wings | 박지민

삼십

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1 week later 

(im writing a letter nightly...jk lol i love hamilton)

He walks into the small cube-like room that has a wheelie chair and a doctor's bed. The walls are a desolate white, a tiny picture that's been stapled onto the wall. It appears to have been drawn by a little kid, maybe the doctor's child. 

The doctor isn't there though, so Jimin decides to look around for little bit. He notices a sight test on the wall accompanied by a Anatomy chart. 

He turned to the other wall, which had a map of what looked like the brain above a chart that showed him the nervous system. Looking at the former poster made him feel nostalgic. Caressing his fingers across the paper, he analyzed the flat brain, wondering what was so wrong with his.

He flinched at the noise of the door creaking open, turning to see that the doctor is finally here.

"Good morning. I am Dr. Goh. You sure got here early." The doctor smiled. 

Jimin nodded, smiling half-heartedly. He didn't like the reason he was here. But he had to. He made his way to the bed, sitting down.

"Um.. I have a problem doctor..." he said. "I...I've been seeing my girlfriend as my mom.. and I've had random outbursts of anger..." The more Jimin proceeded to speak, tears threatened to fall down his cheeks.

The doctor nodded taking notes. When he heard a pause of silence, he looked up at his patient who's fingers were fidgeting like crazy, along with his trembling shoulders. He looked at him worried, asking Jimin to look at him. 

"What you've described to me are what I suspect to be both bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. But in order to be sure, I'm going to have to run some scans of your brain. Tests, as well."

Jimin's lip was trembling, for he was desperately trying to force his tears in. He gripped his sleeves tight. "Please..do whatever you can to find out...I..Iㅡ" he couldn't finish his as he began to cry. The doctor looked him with pity in his eyes. "Are you perhaps going to become a father?"

Jimin nodded, still crying. He was wiping his eyes with his sleeves, but the tears kept flowing. "I want to be a good father...but I'm sick! What if i end up doing something stupid to my child.."

"Hey, I'm a father too. And when I had my first child, heck I was nervous too. I didn't know what to do. I was thinking 'what do I do?'" Dr. Goh said. He placed his hand on Jimin's shoulder, causing Jimin to cry more. "But you know what? I had a beautiful wife to help through all of that. Now, I know that my problems can't compare to yours. But at least I can provide some comfort."

Jimin's sobs only prolonged, taking in the doctor's words. "I'll leave you here, give you some alone time." 

As the doctor left closing the door, Jimin lied on his side, continuing to cry.

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"Jungkook, do you know where Jimin is? I woke up and he wasn't there." Chae-eun asked. Jungkook was feeding Kirimi some manggaetteok. He looked at Chae-eun and shook his head.

She sat down on a stool, deep in thought of where he might be. Did he hear me and Jungkook's conversation? 

"Eonnie, look! Jungkook made this manggaetteok into Pororo!" Kirimi shouted.

"Wow, he sure did. That's amazing!" She replied.

"I'm going to head out, Jungkook. Could you watch Kirimi?" He nodded.

Chae-eun walked out the door, taking her keys with her. 

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"Hey Jimin's girlfriend." Hoseok said.

"Hi, Hoseok. Um..have you seen Jimin?" She asked.

He shook his head. "Why? Is he not with you?"

"No, I can't find him. Have the others seen him?"

Hoseok yelled for the others at the back to come and answer.

The others all came spewing out from the back, throwing plastic cups at one another.

"Ow! Damn it Tae! You got one in my eye!" Seokjin yelled.

"U-um guys..?"

The chaos the boys were causing ceased. They turned their attention towards Chae-eun, who was tapping on the counter worriedly. "Have you guys seen Jimin?" 

The group of boys all looked at each other with confused faces. Namjoon spoke and said, "Jimin said he was going to the zoo with you and Kirimi."

Chae-eun raised her eyebrows, shock clear on her face."He said that? Kirimi's at home with Jungkook, and when I woke up Jimin wasn't even there."

"Why would he lie to us?"

"Oh no..." she said.

The boys all looked at her saying 'what'? 

"I think Jimin heard Jungkook and me's conversation about his mental health..and now I don't know where he is!" Tears threatened to fall down Chae-eun's cheeks, as she banged the counter. "Hey, hey, calm down," Hoseok said. "We'll find him. Okay?"

"But we don't even know where to start!"

"Look, Chae. We can all split up and cover different areas we may think he is at. I can close the shop early okay?"

"This is a big place, Hoseok. Jimin could've went anywhere!" She exclaimed hopelessly. Falling to her knees, her sobs grew even louder, and prolonged until the boys focused on something behind her.

"Chae, I get the feeling we won't have to ho far to look for him," Hoseok tapped Chae-eun's shoulder. Looking up at him, she asked why.

"Because he's right behind you." As she turned around, she saw Jimin standing there with a soft, yet sad smile on his face.

She got up to walk closer to him.

"Hi, jagiya."

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Ily 💜💜

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-BongBong