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Will You Be....

After breaking down in tommys arms i finally calm down enough to talk "ok, what happend, this is proof that somethings going on, at school your constantly putting on a happy facade, but what really happening?" tommy asks showing so much worry, and me not wanting to get my dad in trouble and him getting mad at me i forced a smile and said "im ok" i say with a nervous laugh, "i just wanted to cut my hair short", fake laughing alittle more, "D.. D.. Dad m.. Must have m-misunderstood h.. How sh-sh-short" i say sitting on the wooden chair while he sits on the end of his bed "maddy... You can tell me anything, you know that right?" he asks softly "of course i do" i reply, then it hit me and i gasp, alarming tommy "what is it" he asks "what am i going to do about school" i say worrying again, tommy then got up and walks to his closet and pick something up, i then felt something being places on my head and i look at tommy, he had a sweet smile on and nudged his head to his mirror, i look to my left and see that he put one of his beanies on my head, it didnt make the biggest difference but at leave i couldnt see what was underneath, i stand up and hug him tight, im so thankful of the day i met him in the garden, "mads, i have a question" tommy says, i stop hugging him and look at him, he looked nervous "what is it?" i ask "will you be.. I mean you dont have to, erm w-will you.. Er.. Will" he stutters "why are you stuttering, you never stutter" i was wondering it youd like to be.. Be my" he struggles "your what, say it tommy you can do it" i said putting both my hands on his upper arms like he did for me when i learnt to smoothly speak "my girlfreind!" he blurts out, i look at him confused, after the years of being in school and have tommy teach me things i didnt know, i still didnt know some things "whats that?" i ask "its like a freind, but closer, and they do more things that regular freinds do" he says "like what" i ask and i see his cheeks go red, he then looks at me and pulls me closer and leans his head closer to mine and i felt something very soft press against my lips, he kissed me, he told me what kissing was when we was little, this wasnt out first kiss but it was definatley better, i felt tingley and my heart beat was crazy, he pulls back "like that" he says, "so what dyou say, want to be my girlfreind?" he asks with puppy eyes, i giggled at his expression but then i slowly frown "what about m-my h-hair" i say "i dont care" he says "your beautiful with and without it" he said, ibe only heard the word beautiful afew times, twice from tommy and one on the old broken tv, it was romantic, they was really in love, maybe me and tommy are in love "yes" i say "what" tommy asks "i said y-yes" i say smileing up at him, over the year tommy got taller, so did i but i would probably be alittle taller of my parents fed me properly, i loves tommys mom karens cooking, tommy looked at me with a big smile and we kissed again.

"i should g-get back" i say "no way, im not letting you back their just yet, you can stay here, we can go to school together and ill walk you home, plus hell be asleep so youll probably be locked out" he said really not wanting me to leave "o-ok, but i dont have any clothes" i say looking down at my hoody karen got me for my last birthday and jeans, not really sleep material "hold on" tommy says walking to his closet again, i take the beanie off and he walks back with a shirt what it over sized to him and massive compared to me, but i undress while tommy has his back towards me getting dressed too, when we finish we turn around, tommy obviously fitting his clothes, and me looking tiny in his huge basketball jersey that exposed one of my shoulders and reached near my knee, i then sit on his floor about to lay down before im blocked from my thoughts "what are you doing? " he says "getting ready to sleep" i say "on the floor?" he asks, little did he know i didnt have a bed and slept on new paper and clothes for a blanket, "s-so you can sleep in your b-b-bed" i say and instantly he say "we can share, again, like the sleepovers we had" he says, my parents never knew i used to sleep over because they never cared, "ok" i say as he helps me up, we both lay down my back towards him and i feel him pull me closer, his chest against my back and wraps his arm around me tight yet comfortable, tommy and his family are the only ones that make me feel safe.