Unspoken

My first 2 days of school

Hi I'm obviously Ersha pine and this is my freaking life and love story. Ersha is a 15 years old girl who is thirsty for love and is afraid of many things.

She is suffering from many problems... Family, studies, depression, attention, loneliness and love.

Ersha is a type of person who is still strong even though she is hurting like crap, she is also one of the bravest girl I know ( that's me LOL).

All my life I've been compared to people, all my life I've been a huge failure in front of my friends and family.

I'm not smart, sexy, rich, saint and I'm a rebel. I felt so down for so many years when I realized I had done nothing to prove that I'm a good person.

Whatever, so I have so many things to tell you about and it's all about my stupid crushes. Really, I have so much crushes... It's like I already have 50 crushes since grade three.

All of em made me feel blushy! Like OMG! But then I had realized the act of true love, I mean not true love because it's so deep for a fifteen years old like me... So it's like just a real crush LOL.

So it's Monday morning on the fist day of grade nine high school and I hate it so much. I just wanna sleep and sleep and of course... Sleep.

But I can't stop time. Through the day I've said so much "I miss you" like what the hell, I'm so clingy this morning.

Until I saw this new student, he is kinda cute for me and he looks very shy as fuck bit when he spoke... Oh hell nah!

His voice is so hot as hell! I wanna press his cheeks and say "why are you so cute?" But then I stopped myself for thinking this and start looking for his name on the list board.

I found an unfamiliar name so I tried to ask if he is Joma lerk, but I was too shy so I asked him that about after a day. I can't resist the look of his angelic face. I stared at it so much and can't forget it when I got home.

At home I tried to search him from Facebook but I can't find him so I just waited for tomorrow when I gained confidence to ask his name. The next morning... I don't wanna wake up but I remember up that new student so I get up quickly and get dressed.

So I actually gained a bit confidence so I asked him "are you Joma Erk?" And he said "yes" I felt so happy that I guessed it right and I can't help it! I can't stop blushing and mg friend Iriz already smacked my face to stop me from being this crazy about that new student.

I tried to forget about him bit then our teacher decided to arrange us to our sits I became close to Joma. Just one person between us ( so close OMG) so about that day we did not talk to each other otpr even say hi.

I think that my first day of school with him is not good and is heartbreaking. He is snob and he is so shy ( so am I).

I tried to convince myself at the end of the day that he is just new so I need to understand him if he's like this. And also it's the first day os class, we are all shy and nervous at each other.

But to be honest I can't wait for Joma to be friends with me. I do a lot of daydreaming about this stupid little crush on him.so that's the first dy got on. The second day was really unexpected and unforgettable!

So when I got to school 7:00 impn the morning (I was late) he stared at me like " wtf? Why are you late you bitch" and I got kinda nervous and I felt strange.

So when I saw my chair someone is sitting on it so I asked why he told me to seat beside Joma for a while because he is talking to his friends so I agreed and take my sit.

I looked at Joma but he is looking other way so I just focused my attention to our discussion.

For that time we had an activity game and it is pass the message so I got a butterfly in my stomach ph because I know Joma is the one to mass the message to me. At the same time I got excited to hear his b
Voice so close to my ear.

So it started my belly crumbles and as the message got closer and close Joma looked at me with a poker face so I moved close to him and he said the message " the world's shade is an oblong steroid" like what???? Say what???? I know it's wrong and I found it funny to him.

He didn't whisper the message to me and I hate that he did that because I wanna hear his voice close to me LOL. Then we got our message wrong and I knew it at first.

The right one is " the world's shape is an oblique spheroid" and he said " the world's shade is an oblong steroid" we burst out at laughing.

I really felt the ache in my stomach so I loudly said to him " you're so funny! You said steroid???? Oblong????? And shade???? Hahhahah!!"

But then I realized we are not yet clos and I really felt embarrassed and awkward about it.

Then he looked at me with shock and curiosity... His face is so cute and hot OMG. Then we had a 30 minutes break after that period.

O can't believe what happened when we got back in our classroom he talked with me! Really I can't baliw be it!!!

Not really the long talk but just so e questions like did you copy the notes?? And more about the period a whole ago.

As I got home my crush I had on him got deep and I felt promiscuous but who can say ?? It's just a crush by the way. As I sleep that night my mind keeps telling his name "Joma, Joma, Joma jjjoooomaaaa"

it irritates me but I felt a crack in my smile. I guess the first day was horrible but the second day was great and it gave me hope.

I was expecting so much to happen for the following days and quarters with him.

Especially now that we are getting good to each other and we are so close in our assigned seats! I wonder what will happen next.