I forgot to tell you that I love you

Gaga

Nath is almost done with his studies, he's 23yo. He listens to music in his appartment while working on his reports for his final exams. He hates to listen to some musics that reminds him of the last party they had in the end of high school. He writes about pleasuring himself and as much as he wants death by his side. Weird feelings mixing together.

Nath writes that before the party, he trained walking with the Louboutin. He wears them after because he's curious about his size. Then it's finally time to celebrate the end of their school life all together. They're all 18yo.

He arrives at le Grand Hôtel where the party is set and he is welcomed by Chloé. She looks at him, scanning him and Nath does the same. Chloé looks like a rock star, like Lady Gaga. Nath is certain that Chloé will tell him something bad.

"_ Marinette did a great job, you can go in! Your boyfriend is with the boys. They have a drink."

Nath is pissed, except Adrien, no one knows that they're together. So he doesn't like when Chloé mentions something like that.

He goes inside, and sees Marc from afar. He is taller than everyone. He goes to him. Marc has lots of hearts in his eyes when he sees Nath. He finds him beautiful and nath can sees that. Marc loves the boots. Nath thinks there is no difference wearing the boots after all, he still looks SMALL compared to his boyfriend. They hold hands together in their back because they don't want people to see! Marc also wears a wonderful outfit for the party. Then, they chitchat with their classmates.

Adrien arrives like a star, then Marinette arrives like a star wearing a wonderful dress with a full naked back. All the boys are stunned and find her beautiful. She looks like a princess! The party goes on. Nino is mixing. Then it's time for the Gavroches to play their last concert. The public likes Chloe's songs and after a while the light is off. Marc asks Nath to stay where he is and then he goes away. When the spots go on again Chloe and him and a few others are starting to dance in the center of the hall. It's a dancing show and Marc is dancing! with Chloé! They're the leading couple. Nath thinks his boyfriend is amazing. He is beautiful, he can write wonderful stories, he can dance. And when the show is over the light is off again. When it's back again, Marc is singing on the stage with the Gavroches. Nath is stunned and amazed by Marc's voice. This voice he hated so much when he was younger! Marc has a powerful voice that convey tons of feelings.

"You told me how to be brave"

Nath understands better why he fell i love with him. When the show is over, people wants to hear more.

"_ ENCORE!"

Marc goes back to Nath and apologize for being absent recently. Nath says it's okay and understands why now. Then it's time for people to dance again. Marc asks Nath for a dance. They dance together and Marc decide to kiss Nath. Nath is embarrassed but nothing strange happens and everybody don't care about that. They're happy, they're in love. Nath feels then more comfortable.

Then a big slap happens!

"_ NO!"

Everything stops and everyone want to find out what happens. Adrien tried to kiss Marinette while they were dancing but Marinette slapped him. No one understand the situation. Then Marinette leaves the party and so does Adrien.

"_ WHO STOPPED THE MUSIC?????!!!!!"

After the incident, back to the party. It's almost the end, they all go on the roof because there are fireworks outside to celebrate the end of High school.

After that Marc goes to Nath's house. They make love like they never did before. On a sidenote, Nath recalls their first times having sex. The fact that it was super awkward and ridiculous. He takes note on the fact that romance movies and book can lie about how the first time for people is not always the most beautiful one and that for Marc and him it's because they learn to trust each other and to communicate that it became better and better. He writes about their first times. When Marc did want to penetrate Nath, Nath knockd him in the face by accident. But Marc wanted to keep going anyways and when he finally entered. He was done right away. Marc felt ashamed! But Nath conforted him. he knew something like that could happened because he read it in books. (He studied for that after all)

When it was Nath's turn to enter Marc (not during the same time.). Nath just couldn't get it up because he put too much pression on himself. Anyways, their first time together were a magistral fail. But, now it's different, they know each other perfectly and they know how to pleasure each other. Marc makes love to Nath, Nath makes love to Marc. They love each other until Nath falls asleep in Marc's arm. He's too tired.

When Nath wakes up the next morning, he's naked, the bed is cold. Marc is gone.

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Hi guys! Here it is! It's the end of the first part.

I hope you enjoyed it a bit despite the poor english summarization of it. The full book is almost 700 pages long so it's a lot of work to do. and the end of Part 1 is not even the middle of the book!

Anyways, I thought the first part as a loop. She story starts after the event written in Gaga, and it's an opportunity for Nath to think about his life with Marc since they met when they were 14/15yo.

Nath's world is rather small and only revolves around His mother, Marc and art... and as much as the story progresses different topics are developped : Puberty, discomfort with your body, the birth of desire and love and growing up. Life is not always beautiful, and people come and go and I wanted to depict that with Nath's eyes. Which seems to me to be a rather accurate character to do that. On the other hand, Marc is always shown as a really positive character. He's always in the light, like he's Nath's guide. And when he disappears, Nath's world collapse.

I don't know if you're interested in what will happen next, let me know because the summaries are ready.

Also a friend of mine told me that the "google translation" is not "that bad" and readable, so if you find the courage, i strongly recommend to read the fulll story that you can find here :
https://www.wattpad.com/myworks/163998931-jai-oubli-de-te-dire-je-taime

Next Page... I still leave you with the visual for part 2 which is way shorter than part 1. The world expands... and we'll find out more about the context and what is happening.

Anyways, thank you for you support and let me know if you want to keep reading this story!