Your Love (transgenderXstraight)

80 💚 You Are My Home

May mga bagay tayo sa buhay na hindi natin hawak.

May mga bagay na mayroong limitasyon.

May mga bagay na hinihiling natin na sana, hindi nalang nangyari.

At may mga pangyayari na hindi natin kontrolado.

Mayroon ding mga bagay na may hangganan.

Parang kami...

Pero mula ng naramdaman ko ang pag mamahal ko sa kanya, hindi na ito huminto.

At hindi na mawawala pa.

It's so hard to accept na sa isang iglap lang, nawala siya. I can tell anyone that I am okay, but deep down in my heart, I can't fool myself. Dahil hindi ako okay, and I will never be okay.

I don't know where to begin. Kinuha na ang taong nag papasaya sa akin. The reason why I smile and laugh. The only reason why I keep moving on in my life.

How can I face tomorrow without him?

Paano ako?

I wish I can go back to the times when we are together. Sa mga panahong nasa tabi ko pa siya, kasama ko.

Kaya kong ipagpalit lahat ng mayroon ako, just to be with him, kahit isang minuto lang, o kahit isang segundo.

I want to tell him so many things, but I wish I had the chance to tell him how much I love him.

I miss him sending me to sleep, how he whisper good night to my ears and kiss me on my forehead.

I miss his good morning videos he always send me every morning. I will forever watch it, so I won't forget his face, para manatili sa puso ko na buhay siya, na andito lang siya.

His sarcasm. The way he annoys me. Kung paano niya ako dilaan sa tuwing inaasar niya ako. At kung paano niya ako suyuin sa tuwing napipikon na ako.

The way he brush my hair with his fingers. Kulang nalang ay talian niya ako ng buhok at tirintasin pa.

I miss the way he hold my hands.

Wala na akong papanuorin habang seryoso siyang nakaupo at nagtatrabaho. O di kaya'y nagmamaneho ng sasakyan.

He listen to my rants patiently.

I miss the way he tells me that everything will be alright, when something is wrong.

He is my strength.

God, I miss him so much.

Masakit... Pero palagi ko nalang aalalahanin ang mga masasayang panahon na magkasama kami. Habang buhay kong ipagpapasalamat sa maykapal na minsan sa buhay namin, pinagtagpo ang aming landas.

It may be quite fast, but he changed my life forever.

And I will never forget the things I learned from him.

That there is no such thing as perfect. I learned how to accept the things that I don't like about him. I saw his imperfections as the best things about him.

How to forgive.

How to give second chance or even countless chances, dahil mahal ko siya.

Natutunan ko kung paano ipaglaban ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya.

And the most important thing that I learned from him...