Dear Diary,
I don't know why I am writing this actually. Maybe because I should let my feelings out for once. This is the only place where I can.
Do I deserve to be an idol? I'm not good at anything. I can't rap like Jennie, I can't sing like Chaeyoung and I can't dance like Lisa. I'm just the pretty one. I want people to say that I'm pretty and talented but how can I expect them to love me, when I can't love myself?
They don't have to love me but can't they stop hating me? I didn't do anything wrong. I know I'm not special but I don't wanna see the comments anymore. I don't have confidence. I wish I can be like Lisa. I wish that I can dance, rap, sing, be funny and have the confidence.
I'm just the weird one here. Fans ignore me. On Fan signs, they wouldn't want to get to me. When Blackpink is on the airport, they shout our names. Except mine. I don't hear it see them getting excited from me.
Tell me,
Am I good enough to you?
~Jisoo
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Self Conscious (Kim Jisoo)
Fanfiction"Am I good enough to you?" "Of course you are Eonnie!' Where Jisoo is insecure about being an idol.
