How do you know from the start that you're falling apart.
Trying to hold yourself together with duct tape and wishful thinking .
Forgotten what it means to feel like a normal human being .
Knowing what it meant to feel peace instead of feeling yourself coming apart piece by piece .
Be careful pulling me from the dirt I'm heavy from the years of hurt .
I've been living with a voice that's been calling me shit in my head .
Maybe I should just say fuck it and be happy instead.
But that's kind of hard when all you feel on the inside is dead.
Maybe I need to pull the duct tape a little tighter so I don't feel like I'm coming undone and falling apart maybe find some resemblance of feeling in my heart .
Or maybe something to tighten the nuts and bolts loose up inside my head .
So I can see brighter days instead .
Something to bring me back to a normal human being .
Where I don't feel I have to rely so much on duct tape and wishful thinking.
