Truth be told I'll tell you I'm fine but deep down that feels like a lie still got voices screaming out die .
Going through life feeling so dumb forgot how to feel so all I am now is numb .
Truth be told been quite awhile since I last felt alive.
Maybe I should do something drastic make a change or take a dive something to bring back feeling and not be stuck like a hamster stuck on a wheel constantly running but just stuck in place ,stuck on the treadmill with no changing pace.
Wishing I had a better face one that was happy and not so out of place.
Wish I could go back to a simpler me but any resemblance of that is lost out at sea never to come back never to be.
From my time from the womb to the dirt will I ever know what it was worth .
Truth be told only way to to find and understand is to die not something I'm ready for or wanting to try .
Maybe I need to relax and watch the clouds in the sky quit trying to ponder the who,what ,when ,why.
Truth be told I might see myself happy and old if I just just relax and let peace take hold.
