Find myself looking for happiness through the telescope backwards so far away and upside down.People see me and say man you got that smiley frown a real oxymoron ,dumb faced like I'm a moron high off oxycontin but it's only oxygen in my lungs keeping myself numb to the world around me watching everything around me go floating by trying to grab ahold of what I can but missing with every try .Old soul been around too many times before wondering if this is really it or if theres more.Over analyzing the little things trying too hard to find a deeper meaning .Trying too hard to fight the current instead of letting go and letting myself go with the flow.Constantly switching between being too fast and too slow constantly balancing between yes and no close to asking where exactly did my mind go. Tend to ask stuff like this day to day watching life just pass me by and I waste away staring at the ceiling fan feeling so damn cynical wishing life had more to it than being so typical neurotic to the bone wanting to get out do see more but hard to accomplish when anxiety hits you to your core .Do you just leave life as is or look for more?
