ATEEZ social experiment

Part 35

                         Zero For Conduct

My eyes shoot open as i sit up and gasp for air. I grab into my chest as my heart races harder than it ever has before. Still clenching hard my frantic eyes search the room.

I'm back.

Solid white walls surround as i lay on the chilly marble floor. I prop myself up on the closest one and let out a long sigh still trying to catch my breath. I should be worrying about what's going on but I just let it be.

I got my wish. I'm back but i'm alone. Oh well it's better than the life i left. Guilt still pains my core. What i did to Seonghwa breaking his heart, Yunho letting him get hurt, and Mingi making him watch.

Who knew that even living people can haunt you. It's better this way right? I cant hurt them anymore.

For hours could've been days, who's counting, i just sit and contemplate my life. I think of all the good times i had what i could've done differently the things i should've done but was too scared to.

Suddenly one of the walls open creating a doorway startling me. Another room. I pull myself off from the ground and peak into the mysterious room.

TVs cover the walls flashes and clips of people's lives of children all over the room and one large one in the center.

I get close and the scenes begin to play. Just like they did when we were taken.

A newborn baby appears on the screen. You can see what i'm guessing is the mother lifeless in the back ground. Clips of home videos appear only showing the child growing. It took awhile but i begin to recognize this.

It is me.

My past birthdays and soccer games. My high school graduation. Scenes of my ex appear. Clips from street cameras and security cameras catching moments i wish i'd never have to see again. The screen cuts out and flashes onto a dark room.

My hands fly over my mouth. There weren't cameras in my house. I never put those there. I  know what's going to happen I see him holding me against the wall by my neck, my feet inches from the ground, him thinking it's all for fun.

I begin to gasp for air as i watch my body fall to the ground. I see things i didn't see before he knew she was there he heard the door and let go. He turns back to finish what he started but his body falls lifeless.

The camera changes and i see my sister coming in and just freezing in her steps.

What is she doing? Why doesn't she move! I begin to scream at the screen begging her to move. But her body too drops lifeless.

Flashes of the cops coming, me in the hospital, and all the past times i attempted. How, why did someone do this.

The screen turns black and another on the far wall lights up. Static covers the screen for god knows how long then suddenly it shows the room. The room where i thought i died where i wished to be killed.

Everything begins to play backwards. Seonghwa being lashed while san and i lay near dead on the floor. Me being strangled, San being brought in. Everything we went through here. They watched us every second. That man that showed up in the room came from a hidden door next to the fridge. Pain fils me reliving all of this. The first moment. Seonghwa helping me up. If i could just go back and redo it all.

The screen continues to play and i look at it strangely. That was it right? It showed everything that happened. The same room as before two bodies lay face down into the floor as the hooded figures stand above them. I stand and watch as i realize we weren't the only ones to go through this.

"Oh my god..." I get close to the screen. "It's Mingi..." i can't make out the other figure but i know that that is him. He went through it too.

More and more clips playing showing other groups and people. Recognizing everyone for my small group of friends.

I sit on the ground where i stand overwhelmed by what i just saw. How is that possible how is any of this possible. Am i in hell is this gods form of punishment for me?

"Hana," a calm voice causes me to jump. I turn my head and my eyes fall on Hongjoong standing in the doorway.

"I know you have a lot of questions and i'm here to explain," he walks over and reaches out his hand. I look at and i notice the matching scars around his wrists. I look back up to him and his empathetic eyes look softly down to me.

I wipe the soiled tears off my face with my sleeve then grab a hold of his hand. I follow him out of my torture room and into another that has two chairs. I sit opposite of him.

      "I know you never really liked me i wasn't supposed to be the one to tell all of this but here we go," his breathing becomes shaky and he balls his fists in his lap.

      "Everything that has happened in your life has been planned out. You, we, were all placed into certain families watched every second. They knew you would date him and that you'd be to scared to break up they knew you were going to try to kill him. Everything was set up and planned. All of us went through some lose and they studied us." He takes in a deep breath as i listen in utter shock.

      "They knew you were going to jump and prepared for it," he speaks so calmly but it doesn't help the pain.

      All this time everything that has happened to me has just been an illusion.

      "Who is doing all of this to us?" i stand up rage filling my core. These people killed my sister, seonghwas mom, sans parents for what? Just to see what we'd do.

      "The Korean Military."

A/N

part 1 of today's updates. today is all about unanswered questions. I hope you all enjoyed don't forget to comment and vote💕💕💕