Cry Baby - BEN Drowned x Reader

Crisis

After our movie marathon, I fell asleep.

BEN just so happened to have done the same thing he did last night.

Which is sleep in my bed, and cuddle me.

I can't believe I let this dude sleep in my bed without consequences.

I mean I haven't even complained about it.

Do I enjoy cuddling?

Jeff did say I was clingy.

Maybe I'm just a naturally cuddly person.

How do I not even know if I'm cuddly or not?

I mean Cassie and I used to cuddle all the time, but I never really thought of it as romantic.

She must have, though.

"I'm in love with you."

Those words haven't left my mind since she said them.

Did I love her back?

I don't think I had a crush on her.

It was no secret that Cassie was lesbian, but I never really paid much attention to that.

It never mattered to me.

We were always together, I mean we were best friends.

I still consider her my best friend, whether she's dead or not.

Maybe I do have a crush on her.

I always did get flustered whenever I saw her in a bikini.

But that's not gay, right?

Oh shit.

I think that is gay.

I don't know!

I'm having a gay crisis!

But I also find boys attractive.

Am I bisexual?

Or pansexual?

I don't even know.

I'm so confused.

God, Cassie and BEN have me all confused.

BEN, of all boys.

But Jeff has me confused too...

Is this a love square right now?

Oh jesus.

Please no.

I don't know how many crushes I can take.

All the love emotions are confusing.

"(Y/N). (Y/N)!!" BEN yelled.

"Ahh! What?!" I yelled back.

"You've been spacing out for like 20 minutes, are you alright?" He asked.

"No..." I mumbled.

"Is it about Cassie?" He questioned.

"Well, yes and no. BEN, do you think I'm gay?" I asked randomly.

"Um, I don't know? I can't really read your mind so..." He trailed off.

"Well, I think I might've had a crush on Cassie, but I also like- um... a dude." I caught myself before I could say a name.