it started with a snapcode || h. js

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//this chapter may have sensitive content but not too intense. also may have that spicy part that didn't happen last time, who knows? me mwahahahahah//
"Lea and I signed the contract!" I yell into my mothers ear.

"That's great sweetie." My mother tells me from the other side of the phone.

"We've gotta do idol training, but it should be a piece of cake. Trainee training was quick and easy too." I smile widely.

"When's debut then?" Mom asks.

"I don't know yet, we're still working on a beat for the song we're doing." I continue, soon to hear Lea blasting Valkyrie by ONEUS. //Issa bop//

"I'll let you go now. You're probably busy. I'll visit next month." My mom hangs up.

"LEA." I yell, she knew Valkyrie was one of my faves.

"What? Do you want me to play Mr. Simple?" She chuckles.

"YOU KNOW THATS MY HOE SONG!"

"I'm gonna play it." She unlocks her phone and goes to her music app. She presses play on the song and it starts.

"Because I'm naughty, naughty. Hey! I'm Mr. Simple." I begin to sing.

"Naughty naughty aye?" Jisung pokes his head out of the bathroom. "But wouldn't you be Mrs. Simple?"

My face turns red. "JISUNG!" I run over to the bathroom and push him back inside. I slam the door shut and continue bopping.

"BLOW YOUR MIND." I shout.

"Yes babe you blow my mind." Jisung comes out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist.

It was the end of November. I liked to wear my leggings and long sleeved shirts during colder months. "Jisung I swear if your towel comes off.-" I say.

"She's gonna slap them cheeks." Lea announces.

"LEA!" I slap her playfully as she laughs.

"IM TELLING THE TRUTH!" She continues to yell.

"I will literally move out." I joke.

"BET!"

"If you're moving I'm moving with you." Jisung says.

"I'll live alone in a treehouse and occasionally invite...JEONGIN over for a cup of Jisungs tears."

"JOKES ON YOU THESE EYES DONT CRY!" Jisung yells.

"BET HOE!" I ruffle his hair.

"You're a hoe!" Lea yells to me.

"She's my hoe!" Jisung hugs me.

My face goes red. "I mean you're right on that one, Jisung." Lea exposes me. "She did say she'd probably suck Your di-" I throw my shoe at her.

"AND YOU DIDNT SAY YOUD SUCK CHANS?" I expose HER.

"Suck what?" Chan walks out of his room.

"HOW MANY BITCHES STAYED HOME TODAY?!" I yell suddenly.

"Uh, literally nobody left?" Chan Says.

"It's just us four." Jisung corrects Channington.

"Why don't we play 21 questions or whatever?" I ask.

"OOOOO!" Lea claps her hands.

We gather some chairs and set up a circle. Lea is the first to get asked. After we finish her questions, it's my turn.

"What's the longest time you've spent in the bathroom and why?" Chan asks.

"The longest I've spent in the bathroom...school or home?"

"Either."

"So for school I've spent 80 minutes in the bathroom just to skip a class and lunch. At home probably all day because I got severely sick and wouldn't stop throwing up." I reply.

"What's your deepest darkest secret?" Jisung asks.

I think long and hard. "My deepest darkest secret...only Lea and my mom know about it." My head lowers.

"I know which secret you're talking about, Y/n. You don't have to say it." Lea smiles softly.

"No no, it's fine Lea." I begin. "So when I was 16...I..." my eyes begin to water.

"It's okay, you don't have to say it. I shouldn't have asked." Jisung puts a hand on my shoulder.

"It's been 3 years since that incident, I should be able to talk about it." I mutter.

"You don't have to." Jisung says.

"3 years ago, September 29th, 8:09pm." I look up with glossy eyes. "Hang on." I get up from my seat and go into my room.

I come back a few minutes later holding a report file. "In this file is a hospital report. I don't know why I brought this with me. Anyway, you can look at it." I hand Jisung the file.

He pulls out the papers and his expression saddens. "So basically, 3 years ago...I tried to commit suicide." My voice says coldly.

"Y/n..." Jisung looks at me, teardrops slowly flowing from his eyes.

"I wasn't in a good state of mind and then this happened. The scars faded since then but you can still slightly see the deepest one." I slowly raise a sleeve.

Jisungs warm arms are around me as I begin to cry. "Jisung I thought you said you don't cry?" I ask as I hear him sniffle.

"They cry for you. God, that was cringy but I mean it. I love you." He kisses my cheek.

"I think that's our cue to stop the game." Lea Says as the front door opens.

"AYO WHATS UP FUCKERS?" Felix memes the whole thing.

I quickly gather the papers and shove them back into the file. "Woah, Y/n what's wrong?" Felix stops in his tracks as he notices the tears.

"Don't ask, Felix." Lea looks at him with her eyes full of sorrow.

"Is everyone upset today or...?" Felix's expression changes.

"Don't ask, Felix." Lea repeats with a heavier tone.

"Okay, Okay." He says.

I rush past the group and into my room. I shove the file into the bottom drawer of my dresser. I wipe my eyes and go back to the others.

I take a seat and stare into nothing. I remain like that for a while until Jisung snaps me out of the state. "H-Huh?" I gain focus and look at him.

"You were staring again, are you alright?" His voice soft.

"Yeah..I'm fine." I manage to smile. "Just not used to talking about...that."

"You didn't have to say it."

"I just thought you should know about my past, why should I hide things like that from someone I trust?" I lay my head on his shoulder.

"Just know that I love you no matter what, Y/n." He smiles and kisses my forehead softly.

"I love you too."

//sorry if you expected spice, I just had this idea since Sunday night. I hope it isn't triggering or too triggering. I wasn't trying to- idk the word- but like show it off? I love y'all and if you need someone to talk to feel free to message me here, snap (Jisungs.bitch) or insta (xx,Rejectable.jeffo.xx)
And this should have been uploaded yesterday but I wasn't in the best mood. Anywho, next chapter out tomorrow possibly
Peace ✌️