"𝘚𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘮" | 𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘞𝘰𝘰 x 𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘏𝘰𝘰𝘯

ᶜʰᵃⁿ'ˢ ᴶᵒᵘʳⁿᵃˡ⁻ ᴾᵃᵍᵉ ¹

2019.10.14

Mon.

10:20 PM

These past few hours have been nothing short of hectic..i had my first victim today..she tasted good- well,don't get the wrong idea..Mingyu-hyung took the remaining meat she had left for us to eat- it was pretty good having it raw, not gonna lie..

I haven't stopped the cutting..well, you knew that. I think I'll just drop out this year..No one wants to truly be my friend- they're just pitying me. I'm boxed in my own fantasy world, wishing it was real. It's a dream I don't want to wake up from..I've waited without thinking and now I realize that I'm a freak..16 years old, a serial killer and a cannibal- who is suicidal and cutting. How much more evidence do I need? There's nothing I can do about it anymore..I'm always clogging my ears with headphones and the volume all the way up. I don't want to be so secluded.. It's like I've forgotten how to breathe. Why am I still here?

Wonwoo,Mingyu, and Jihoon-hyung all understand me..they're all going through the same thing:

• Self-harming.

• Suicidal.

• A "freak".

I trust them. They'll get it. We all planned the date we'd die together..when we were gonna do it,how we were gonna do it..i can't wait for that day.

They are the only ones that can accept me for what I am. And I am the only one who can accept them for what they are. Even though we are not biologically tied by blood, the blood on our hands from our victims means the same thing to us. We're all very close like that- we have those deep conversations with each other, we cry with each other, we cut with each other..we hug each other, kiss each other- usually just pecks, but other times it get hot..We all already confessed our feelings for each other..is it that weird that all 4 of us like each other? It's just how we roll..we've been friends since 2nd Grade- we've been more intimate with each other than just kisses- and we still think of each other the same..i like that 

How troublesome...