Poems

Final stand

Final stand

My life has not been easy
Nor has it been cruel
I've lived each day in tears and pain
Trying to avoid becomeing someone else's tool
I've cryed myself to sleep at night
I've died a thousand times
I gave up on the love of a father
Because of haneass crimes
I thought that I was different
I thought that I was bright
But in the end I was the same
I had a darkness i could not alwase fight
My life has not been easy
And yes at times it's cruel
I am the victim of a father who used me like a tool
I can not grant forgiveness for it isn't in my right
But I can say forgiveness may be within sight
I still want only death or a loving man to hold
I still wish with my breath that I won't wake up alone
But every morning starts the same
Im cold and oh so lonely
My fragile heart is breaking up
And no one can console me
But there are those with dark brown eyes
Those caring kind and true
He try's to save me once again
I hope to save him too
We cannot be together
for I love somebody else
But deep inside my lonely heart
I beg for him to help
I only want his arms to hold me
I only want his smile
But I cannot have those things
Tho I've craved them for awhile
So now we've given up on that
And I've moved on to better things
A darker skin
A lighter smile
And hands so warm and thin
He holds me in his arms sometimes
And askes me to be his
I think he is the better choice
As my heart races to meet his
I care about him way to much
To feel comfort with the last
So im giving up my fight for him
I hope my resolve will last
The new one makes me happy
He makes me smile sometimes
So while my life has not been easy
hope is just enough
I know I'll try my hardest
To be everything I can
I'll make my mother happy
I'll take my final stand