sad why dont we one shots

happy birthday

Zach was mentally exhausted and all the pressures from the ones who wanted to know what is wrong with him wasnt helping but was only making the pain worse. The laughters that had lost their sound and the words that been stolen from his mouth were warnings for everyone that something serious is going through zachs mind. Jonah couldnt help it but to ask him what is wrong and the only answer he received was a shrug and im ok beneath his lips. But the poker tone couldnt conceal the sadness behind it and the fake smiles werent convinsing enough. There were some talking times about it between jonah corbyn and Daniel but two werent concerned about his situation that much that would decide to do something about it. Daniel was believing that hes in a teenage faze and Corbyn was saying that he just do it to get attention but jonah had spent a quiet long time with zach and he knew it was more than a faze but couldn't do much about it. Today was the night that jack would turn 20. Daniel was half asleep sitting on the bed when the door slammed open and the tall figure behind it stepped inside. Behind him a fake blond yawning guy followed. Daniels head shot up as soon as he hear the doors sound and stared with his widened eyes at jonah and Corbyn while whispering what the fuck beneath his shallow breathe. Jonah placed his index finger on his lips with a shush and corbyn closed the door while jonah grabbed the back of chair and sat backwards on it. Daniel raised one of his eyebrows as a sign of confusion and waited for an explanation.
"So you wanna tell me why the hell you slammed open my door like youre going to arrest me in" he stopped and grabbed his phone that was sharging besides his pillow to unlock it and turned his face up again "7 in the morning?"
Corbyn cleared his throat with a cough and his glance forwarded between jonah and daniel. Jonah turned his face from corbyns to daniel and started with an barely audible tone. "To day is jacks birthday and because as you know hes joining the 20 club" he pointed at daniel corbyn and himself while continuing "we decided to celebrate his birthday by suprising him at 12:15 when he would be convinced that we all have forgot it." Daniels processing took a bit due to the dizziness of sleeping but finally the corners of his mouth curved to a smile and he brought his thump up as a sign of agreement but raised one his eyebrows and asked with an sleepy tone "but what about zach...zach is jacks best friend we wont take him with us for planning?"
A voiceless conversation been shared with eyes between jonah and Corbyn. Daniel cracked his knuckles while trying to shake the sleep away when corbyn turned his eyes from jonah to daniel while explaining with an pitiful voice.
"Well...hes not in a real good mood and escaping from his responsibilities is kinda triggering sooo me and jonah decided to not involve him in plans"
Daniels unconvinced stare tuned to jonah while standing and a frown took from in his forehead.
"You can't be agree on this" but when jonah didnt say anything except nobbing danials tone turned to an aggressive one
"Come on guys hes jacks best friend..he has been waited for this year for almost half a year you cant take it away from him just because hes in a teenage sad faze. Weve all been through it you know how it feels"
Jonah tried to conform him by placing his palm on daniels shoulder "we know but zach is too deep in his faze that he wouldn't care about his birthday anyway. He would blow this place up by screaming and reminding us everyday about how many days has been left from a month ago but he hadnt shown any sign of interest up till now. Were not taking the chance of party away from him we just arent going to take him for plans."
Daniel bit his bottom lip and shrugged while walking to the door "fine..be ready when i come out from the bathroom we will leave...i dont want to do it while zachs awake" and stepped out of the room with a sigh. As they were settling up the deals before going out in another room a teenage boy was lying down on the unmade bed drowned in his thoughts. As a well known truth was eating him from the inside the more he was trying to avoid it by staying away from everyone especially him the more he was seeing himself falling. No matter how much he was trying to deny his feelings by evading facing him. He still finding himself thinking about him and remembering him while a wide smile was forming on his lips without his control. He didnt want him to know about it. He had been shirking all the possibilities to face him in the fear of being exposed in front of him and he would hate him for being such a werido. He would rather to suffer from the distance than revealing his affection. He had no clue till when he could keep up with the remaining outside of everything. The high level anxiety due to the fears was torning him apart from the inside. Fear of being mocked because of his feelings and the fear of rejection in one hand and in the other fear of being dumped out of why dont we because of his unbearable actions. They boys were already mad at him although they were thinking hes in a teenage depression faze. How long would it take for them to come up to him yelling and starting to fire up criticisms upen him and it wouldnt take much longer to asking him to leave. And they have the right to do so. In past few weeks he refused to attend any interviews or performance in any concerts with yelling and slamming the door of his room close asking them to leave him alone. As his vision of ceiling blurred he turned his face to the door and caused the tears that filled his red eyes streamed on his puffy eyes. He sat on the bed with the help of the grabbing the edge and and his vacant stare searched for the small metal box that was hidden in all the unwashed cloths that were spread all over the floor. When his moist eyes found the box under a dirty tshirt he jumped from the bed and dragged himself with slow steps towards it. He grabbed the box with shaky hands caused by the lack of sleep and negleting of eating and walked towards his bed while trying to avoid falling caused by dizziness. He almost fell on the bed and opened the box when an tiny smile formed on his dry lips. There it was. The present that he had bought months ago and counting down the days since that to give it to him. When the realization took over zachs mind the smile was replaced by the turned down lips and with a sigh he closed the box and put it under his bed while lying and bringing his knees to his stomach. He couldn't give the present to jack because he was too afraid to face him again after all those pushing backs without an explanation. He couldn't find the courage to meet him again and stop himself from spilling out the truth. He couldn't and shouldn't give the present and he knew that it would break jacks heart seeing how his best friend had turned his back on him but he seeing him being mad at him was better than the thought of his hatred towards him. As the others planned the suprise party he lied down and tried to forget the time by sleeping but his thoughts werent gonna leave him alone and the passing of time felt like an slow motion version. He moved on the bed all day and the only things he was able to due to the fact that he was stuck in his room was watching movies ro listening to the music but all the movies seemed boring and all the songs some how reminded him of his situation which didnt help the mood but made it worst. As the day passed at the final hours he was checking the clock on his phone every five minutes and the stress and anxiety was overtaking him like he was going to die at 12. He grabbed the metal box and opened it again and again and everytime fear caused the backing off and the box was placed at the place it had spent past months getting dust till the moment would come and when it finally arrived the box couldn't serve its purpose. In the last minutes his glance was fixed on the clock and his senses were sharped for any sign of a celebration or suprises. When the time reached 11:59 his heart beats were audible from outside and his whole body was shaking. He held his breath and counted the seconds in his mind. When the 11was replaced with a 12 and the day on the digital calendar showed first of july he exhaled the deep breath that was captured in his lungs and whispered happy birthday under his breath. Than he waited for the screams of happy birthdays from jacks room but the only sound that rang in his ears was the sound of his heart that hadnt been calmed. His worried gaze shifted over between the box and the options weighted up in his boiling mind when the minutes turned to 01 from 00 and and he still couldn't hear the sounds of birthday wishes he shook his head to fade the dizziness away and grabbed the box while standing on his unsteady feet. He looked at his messy hair and dirty clothes that hadnt been changed for a long time but turned his head towards the door with a shrug as a sign of..... he put the box behind his back and his tired eyes searched for another person in the hall. When he assumed that the hall is indeed empty he walked towards jacks room with lightest steps as an afford to make the smallest noises to avoid any unwanted attention. When he approached towards jacks white wooden door he leaned one of his palms and ears on the door and closed his eyes to increase the concentration. When no noise exept the sound of the dripping sweats from his forhead and the heart beats that was pushing forcefully into his ribs like it was about to explode was hearable he assured that hes all alone and with a cough to aware jack of his presence opened the door and with a doubtful glance on the ground took his first step into jacks room. Jacks head shot up as the sound of the opening door reached his ears and a look of confusion and wonder took over his face. His elaborated eyebrows were a sign of the mess of unasked questions in his head and his partially opened lips were waiting for the words to come out but jacks mind was too overflowed with thoughts and emotions. He wanted to shout at him and punch him in the face to calm his anger down and in the other hand he wanted to hug him tightly and never let him go. He had missed his best friend so much but he was too mad from the lack of information about his absence to go and greet him. As he pulled brows together in a frown he moved a bit to the edge of bed to make room for zach to seat. Zachs steps made their way towards jacks bed with hesitation and he tripped and almost fell on the bed. The next few seconds passed in a silent term and zachs downwarded gaze wandered on the ground to made minimal eye contacts till jack finally decided to break the annoying silence with crossed arms and frown as a sign of frustration.
"So you come here after ages of hiding yourself and you dont even explain the reason behind your childish action? Just straing at the ground like the floor is more interesting than the face of your best friend? Or ex best friend?"
Jack raised on of his eyebrows and shook his head in disappointment.
"I dont even know what the hell i am to you"
The deep despair in his tone made zachs heart broken and the tears covered his vision. He wanted to scream his feelings to tell him the reason of his absence to hug him and tell him how much he loved him but the fear of rejection was like a invisible wall that was standing between him and jack. The tence muscles around his closed mouth were pushing back the sobs in his throat and his downwarded turned head was preventing jack from seeing the hot tears that were falling beside zachs bare feet. Jacks anger was flaring up each second when no Voice came from jacks pursed lips and without his control the harsh words came out as a shout. "LOOK AT ME..HOW COULD YOU BE SO SELFISH" zach turned his head and his red eyes met the angry boy sitting on the otherside of the bed after weeks. The tears were blurring his vision and sweat droplets were purring down from his forehead. He took a deep breath while closing his eyes and his hands reached for jacks face while leaning his body towards him. He placed his dry lips on jacks soft pink lips and kissed him with passion. The blood rushed in his cheeks and caused the crimson shade on his pale face and the heart beats were loud enough for even jack to hear. Suddenly he felt a push on his chest from jacks palm and opened his eyes that were filled with the tears from shock and rejection as heard jacks gasp and a whisper of what the hell beneath his lips. to be adding on his shame the door slammed open and three older boys walked to the room while harmonizing happy birthdays but the singings stopped as they saw zach and felt the tense vibes in the air. As the tears were rolling down from zachs face his glance shifted over between the shocked and frustrated features of jack to the confusion facial expressions of taller standing boys and sprinted towards the door. Hitting daniels shoulder while passing him and slammed the door close behind him and cutted off daniels loud ouch. As he was shaking his hand while running to dry the tears he could head jacks harsh words as shouts. He opened the houses door and slammed it hard. He ran and ran till his legs were numbed and his lungs were burning. He bowed and grabbed his knees while panting and gasping for air to calm his collapsing lungs and screamed so loud while breaking down in tears from the rage and shame that was suffocating him from the inside. He startet to run again with downheaded gaze and with everystep the jacks words spinned louder around his head. The tears mixtured with sweat were falling down from his raised cheeks on the ground and the feelings were torning him apart. He wiped the tears as he was running pass the street and the only sound that he heard was the sound of the earsplitting sound of cars break before feeling a sharp pain and everything went black.
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"Ouch" The door slammed close and all the glances turned towards jack with a confused look. "So you wanna tell us whats going on?" From jonah caused jacks shouts "hes getting out of control..i know he was weird but i didnt know he was a good damn freak. You wanna know what he just did? He just kissed me" the words caused a gasp from wonder raised from corbyn on the other side of the room and made others eyes widened in shock. Daniels glance turned from door to jonah and mumbled "do you think we should follow him?" And jonah shook his head as a no while whispering back "he will back himself he just needs time". A few hours had passed and when the youngest boy pf the group didnt come back a wave of fear passed jonahs mind. He went down stairs to talk about the situation with others when their manager hit him on the phone. In the middle of the conversation his phone fell from his loose sweaty grip on the ground and the tears rushed towards his eyes. Sound of the phone hitting on the floor caused the others heads turning towards him and the facial expression of jonah caused the worrys to take form in their heads. Daniel ran to catch him when he saw his shivering knees and the non stop whispers made his own knees weak too.