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No.1 : No Feelings Yet

Mark's P.O.V

8.8.2016 
(NOT ACTUALLY A REAL DATE)

4:20 PM         (OR TIME! JUST AN FYI)

Dear Diary,

I know this is weird for a guy like me to have a diary as an 18-year-old teen, but things just had been going normally...even for an emotionless guy like me.

Anyways...

My name is Mark, I'm a guy with no feelings, emotions, or anything like normal humans would have...apparently I was born to be broken and I've been living with emptiness ever since.

I'm using my diary to keep all my life or progress when school starts tomorrow, see if my life is just getting worse by any second.

Well, that's pretty much it about me and it's the only time I'll ever write about this. Maybe sometime in the future, I'll use you again when I can finally be normal but I highly doubt it'll ever happen that I can't have a good life.

Goodbye for now,
Mark Fischbach

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3rd P.O.V

It was a day before school where the next day would come around the corner, Mark of course doesn't have better things to do with life these days.

As Mark looked at a pile of supplies for his school days which were a mess scattered in one place in one corner, he dozed off thinking on what would happened around his senior year. Will it be different than like any other grade year...or will it just be the same as always?

'Someday...Mark, you will find someone special to put you back from piece by piece...just like me having your mother in my life'

'Will I find the person I've been seeking out?'

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'...I highly doubt it'll happen...it's still never gonna be the day where I find myself be happy' Mark thought to himself, including remembering his father's hopes for his son.

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Mark's P.O.V

"...One day, it'll be the day for me..."

"Mark, come down for supper your mother and I made for us together." As my father called me, I focused myself together and head downstairs for supper.

While me and my parents were eating, my father started the conversation "So son, since your old enough for everything now to take care of yourself. Your mother and I will be away overseas to have some quality time together just us two. And I know you'll be just fine all by yourself, alone, while you go to school and be responsible." During his talk with me, his whole arm was slithering to the mother's shoulder and hugged her close.

"Well I can't believe one of you haven't asked me to come with you." I say it in a low sarcasm tone knowing I'm losing hope when one day passes to end and into the next, "Oh! We're sorry! We were thinking about you coming with us, but it'll cost too much!" My mother exclaimed in an desperate apology to me. "Besides Mark, this is a husband and wife thing. You'll understand once you found the one tomorrow." As my father brings that topic up, I just couldn't stand the feeling of me waiting for that day to happen every school year....it just makes me sick but it's very intoxicating that he maybe right, and the fact when he's right makes me have a little hope in me.