Him and I

Chapter 13 Breaking all over again

And we were one again, our days filled with love, talked about having kids and looking at houses. Night kisses were a part of my routine again. I had to feel guilty but I didn't, my encounter with Ondreaz felt fair, he hurt me and I hurt him back, everything was exactly how it was supposed to be. I still couldn't believe I went that far. I have no idea what fueled that experience, was it revenge?was it lust? was it impulsive?

I settled with revenge

Weeks passed

I had just come back from the grocery store and I noticed Tony sitting at the edge of our bed staring at the floor, looking devasted. My sudden chirpy mood plummeted. I stood for a moment, I had never seen him like this.

Tony? I inquired,my words filled the dead silent room

Ondreaz told me-Tony muttered

he stood up, facing me yet still not looking me in my eyes

you're a fucking whore-his word cutting me just like a dagger

you're one to talk-I defended myself, I truly thought we were past this.

I can't fucking believe it-he mumbled

With my brother, Jesus!what the fuck is wrong with you!-His voice getting deeper and scarier by the moment

I don't think I can ever forgive you-Tony replied

I loved you, I don't think I can anymore-he continued

Look! I made a mistake, you did the same!-I exclaimed

So, now I'm the bad guy while you did the exact same thing! might I add you really fucked her, I didn't do shit with Ondreaz

It doesn't have to be this way, Ty

-no, you made it this way

-I poured my heart out to you

-You know how much I love, it was meaningless, I was hurt!

-Don't you understand Y/N we don't work, we try to work it out but it's impossible, we end up in circles.

-We cheated on each other for godsakes he sighed disappointedly

-Our love is toxic. For once I had to agree, our love was explosive in a bad way, our breakup had left me shattered due to its toxicity.

-Just go...

I stood there stunned and walked out of our apartment, maybe this time for good